Author Archives: Elana Levin

X-Men ’97 Finale: Magneto and Xavier’s Meet Cute in the Mind Palace

“Mr. Sinister is obsessed with genetic purity and then this disaster bi bowling league shows up and stomps his ass,” – Artist and Art Director Ethan Gould joins us to talk about the finale arc of Disney‘s X-Men ’97 animated series. Episodes: Bright Eyes – Tolerance Is Extinction. 

We go deep on Bastian and Operation Zero Tolerance in the animated series and comics. The original 1992 animated series was a huge influence on Ethan’s work so we discuss it at greater length here than I have so far on the podcast.

Don’t miss my conversation with the Great Steven Attewell on the X-Men ’97 premier.

Sarah Daniel Rasher on the mid-season episodes 

Check out Ethan’s art and design for the Stillfleet TTRPG where you will soon be able to check out The Sometimes Kingdom on Twitch etc. 

Portfolio: https://cara.app/gouldiniart and https://www.instagram.com/spectralhouse/

Get your Magneto Made Some Valid Points T via X-Plain the X-men podcast’s Teepublic.

X-Men ’97 Episodes 3-6: Non-passing Mutants ACT Up

Covering the X-Men ’97 TV series, episodes 3-6: Fire Made Flesh, Motendo, Lifedeath and Remember It with my Deep Space Dive co-host, education research consultant and former Shakespeare professor Sarah Daniel Rasher.

We’ve got:

  • 90’s politics explained 
  • The love rhombus is really a hexagon
  • Every day the Shi’ar are Thinking About The Roman Empire 
  • What makes a good Inferno
  • Suggestions for the X-Men’s PR strategy
  • Nobinary people having Morph feelings
  • References you might have missed

Don’t miss my conversation with the late Steven Attewell about the series first two episodes.

Star Wars the Bad Batch 3 & Tales of the Empire: Get animated with Holly Raymond

Space dads, space witches, and redemption arcs abound in the final season of Star Wars: The Bad Batch and in the Tales of the Empire animated miniseries. 

Holly Raymond Phd, the poetess, professor, and reader of All The Star Wars Ever has returned to share her insights on these animated Star Wars shows on Disney +

We cover a lot of ground in this spoiler-filled episode:

  • Animation styles
  • Biology is not destiny is also true about midi-chlorian counts
  • Being choosy about trans narratives
  • Depicting war in a family-friendly show
  • Ambiguously ethnic Jedi cultural practices
  • Project Necromancer, Sniper Clone X2 and the rest of the show’s conspiracies
  • “the intrinsic lesbian desire to have Asajj Ventress in every show.” 

If you missed it, Holly and I covered Bad Batch Seasons 1 and 2 here.

The Venture Bros. Remastered: Season 6 Episodes 5 & 6: Of Tanks & Warhol

This is an audio remastered version of an episode of The Venture Bros podcast originally recorded in 2016. One way we’re memorializing my late friend and co-host Steven Attewell is by improving the audio quality of the earliest episodes of our podcast.

Here’s a favorite episode with new improved sound.

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Season 6 of the Venture Brothers: “Tanks for Nothing” and “It Happening One Night.”

Your hosts, Elana Levin and Steven Attewell, Phd. explore The Venture Bros show as a historian and an art history geek. We break-down the themes and references present from cinema, histotry and pop culture. While Steven is a Professor of US history. Elana has a BA in Studied Warhol A Lot (which came in handy for episode 6).

Expect more then 15 minutes of famous references. 

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Learn more about Steven Attewell: https://graphicpolicy.com/2024/04/11/steven-attewell-the-maester-of-fandom/

The Venture Bros Podcast archives https://graphicpolicy.com/the-venture-bros-podcast/ 

Steven’s blog: https://racefortheironthrone.wordpress.com/ 

It’s Dick Tracy! With Writer Alex Segura

Award winning mystery writer Alex Segura is co-launching hardboiled 1930’s detective Dick Tracy’s latest incarnation. We discuss Chester Gould’s iconic comic detective from Dick Tracy’s roots in the funny pages, the character’s surprising sci-fi twists to Segura’s new comic book series. We even touch on Warren Beatty’s underrated 1990 movie adaptation that featured Steven Sondheim musical numbers and Madonna! 

How is Dick Tracy like Riverdale? What are our dreams of a James Ellroy-verse? Whether you’re a Dick Tracy newbie, noir nerd or mostly know Segura from his popular runs on Poe Dameron, Spiderverse tales or his newest X-Men comics, don’t miss out! 

The new Dick Tracy comic book series is co-written by Michael Moreci with art by Chantal Aimee Osman and Geraldo Borges, colors by Mark Englehart, lettering by Jim Campbell and published by Madcave Studios.

Keep tabs on https://www.alexsegura.com/

A Memorial for Steven Attewell Phd, The Maester of Fandom

One of my greatest friends and frequent collaborator Steven Attewell has died. Here are some thoughts about his work and his history that I wanted to share with the fan community. 

You can make donations in his honor to the Emergency Workplace Organizing Fund
https://wokerorganizing.org/  

Maester Steven’s Legendary Tumblr: Race for the Iron Throne
https://racefortheironthrone.tumblr.com/ 
https://racefortheironthrone.wordpress.com

A People’s History of the Marvel Universe
https://graphicpolicy.com/category/history/peoples-history-of-the-marvel-universe/

You can read the obit I wrote here
https://graphicpolicy.com/2024/04/11/steven-attewell-the-maester-of-fandom/

The Venture Bros Podcast
https://graphicpolicy.com/the-venture-bros-podcast/ 

His Game of Thrones Vblogs with Scott Erik Kaufman (which are also available as podcasts under Lawyers Guns and Money Podcast) 

Steven Attewell; The Maester of Fandom

Steven Attewell

There are people in fandoms whose critical work on a topic is so well known and respected that everyone else in the fandom reads them and eagerly awaits their take on it. People defer to them for insight into the media that they love. 

I was a fan of Steven Attewell’s writing before we met in person. I found his blog Race for the Iron Throne when I first began reading A Song of Ice and Fire and searched for what smart people on the Left had to say about it. I think we connected on his Tumblr. He had just moved to NYC after getting his doctorate in history. I invited him to hang out. I was surprised when he said yes! 

I shouldn’t have been surprised. Because, day after day, for decades, Steven shared his insight about what he loves with others. Anyone could ask him a question on his Tumblr, and (provided they were not an asshat) they would get a thoughtful answer, drawn from his knowledge of everything from history, to politics, to labor organizing, to a million pieces of speculative fiction and films. He was endlessly generous with his time and was patient with EVERYONE. 

It makes sense for him to have been that patient because he spent time organizing his fellow academic workers at UC Santa Barbara. Any successful union organizer (and he was a successful union organizer; rank and file no less!) has to be able to, not just talk to people, but LISTEN to them as well. Organizers must understand workers’ concerns and then explain to them why making the brave move of joining together with their coworkers is the thing that will make their lives better. Steven had that empathy, patience, and wisdom. 

I love that everyone addressed him as “Maester Steven” on Tumblr. “Maester” is an honorific George R. R. Martin created for scholars and healers in his A Song of Ice and Fire series. That was apt for Steven. He was a voice of wisdom in fandom who was able to address complex realities with sensitivity. 

His non-fandom book was: People Must Live by Work: Direct Job Creation in America, from FDR to Reagan. Worker justice was his mission. He brought class analysis and deep knowledge of economic systems and labor organizing to everything from Star Wars to The Venture Brothers. His series A People’s History of the Marvel Universe is giant in its scale. In it, he wove together real history and sprawling fictional worlds with great depth, and with unprecedented mastery. Who else would write Cap Saves Altamont or Anti-Mutant Prejudice and Mutant Rights in the Long Durée?!

When there were topics he wanted to write about that were outside of his immediate personal experience, he would go out of his way to make sure those perspectives and experiences were taken into account. Ordinarily, if a non-Romani person wrote about how Romani characters were used as placeholders for Jewish identities in comics I would have been worried that they would say something offensive, but Steven always did the homework and respected people. The result was a piece that everyone could admire.

Steven and I have been podcasting together for a decade with many episodes covering The X-Men and Captain America, as well as our whole series on The Venture Bros. The Venture Bros podcast was his idea. He saw that a lot of people who loved the show didn’t have the knowledge of history and pop culture to appreciate the layers of meaning of the show, and we felt like fans deserved to enjoy its full richness. 

Sarah Daniel Rasher (the co-host of one of my other podcasts) said something incredibly poignant and apt about their last conversation with Steven: “He had so much more to discover and write and be excited about.”

Steven messaged me the day X-Men ‘97 went live to make sure I watched the show and suggested making time to podcast about it right away. I’m grateful we got to do that while we could. It is breaking my heart that we will not get to finish X-Men ‘97 together. 

I’m struck by the fact that we are now without Steven and without his vlogging partner, Scott Erik Kauffman. Both died from cancer far too young. I sincerely hope we can protect their intellectual legacy. 

On a more personal level, I’m sad we’ll never get to know what his TTRPG characters are going to do next. Or that we won’t be able to watch a movie and grab a bite outside together.

Finally, tell the critics and academics whose work you love how much it means to you. Fund their work! Fight for academic workers unions and public funding for public higher education (Steven was a professor at City University of NY). Watch or read something you love today and talk to a friend about it. That would make him happy.

To honor Steven, donations can be made to Emergency Workplace Organizing.

X-Men ’97 Premiere! Getting Animated with Steven Attewell Phd.

“Do not make me let you down” – Magneto 

From Henry Gyrich and the Great Replacement Theory to anti-mutant medical discrimination here’s our conversation about the debut of the new X-Men ’97 animated TV series. 

Steven Attewell brings a historian’s perspective to X-Men ’97 — the exciting revival of the animated X-Men show of our youth. We do a deep dive into the show’s impressive politics and significant design choices. Learn about real world political parallels both past and VERY present, developments in evolutionary science, queer themes and crop tops. This episode opens with 9 minutes of spoiler free discussion till and then a spoiler-filled look at episodes 1 and 2.

Read Steven’s blog and his A People’s History of the Marvel Universe  and our classic roundtable in which civil rights history experts prove that no, Professor X is not MLK Jr. MLK Jr was far more radical and visionary. 

Deep Space Dive, a Star Trek DS9 Podcast: Necessary Evil

Film Noir has been a cultural touchstone for nearly a century, and Deep Space Nine revels in it in season 2 episode 8. In “Necessary Evil” we flashback to Odo and Kira’s very uncute meet-cute during the Occupation. Join us as we discuss Sarah Daniel Rasher’s favourite DS9 episode, unpacking all of its references and allusions while tackling some of its hard hitting substance.

From Ferengi Casablanca and the mystery of Kira’s ponytail to Odo’s multitudes and the difference between a murder and a “casualty”, this episode demands a rewatch whether you’re new to noir or a buff like Sarah and I. Because after all: it’s the stuff that podcasts are made of…. 


DSD “Necessary Evil” Transcript

Elana: Deep Space Nine is the Star Trek with the greatest focus on political concepts like colonialism, feminism, queerness, and post scarcity economics. Join hosts and guests who aren’t just Trekkies, but activists, academics, artists, therapists, and more as we take a deep dive into the text and subtext where few Star Trek podcasts have gone before.

Sarah: Welcome to Deep Space Dive. We’ll be discussing Deep Space Nine’s themes and characters, not doing recaps. There are many fine recap podcasts out there. Instead, we look at the show as a whole, and this episode, like all of our episodes, is probably full of spoilers.

Elana: Mm hmm.

Sarah: If you’re watching the show for the first time, we recommend finishing your watch through before starting to listen to our podcast. All of the old episodes will be waiting for you when you’re ready. I’m Sarah Daniel Rasher. When I’m not getting paid to use math to save the world, I write about film and figure skating. I was the founding captain of my high school Star Trek club and I once got Nicole de Boer to kiss me at a convention.

Elana: I’m Elana Levin, also the host of Graphic Policy Radio. I’ve worked at the intersection of comics, nerd culture, and social change for a really long time. And my biggest cred was giving a speech on fan activism at a rally organized by Leta, a.k.a. Chase Masterson.

Sarah: So this episode is a little different than the ones we’ve done before. Elana and I were talking about what our favorite episodes of Deep Space Nine are, especially the ones that we haven’t been able to go into depth about on the podcast yet. We want to talk about them not as a recap, but how they fit into the rest of the series and why they represent the best of Deep Space Nine. In this episode of Deep Space Dive, we’re looking at my favorite, “Necessary Evil”. The one where a new discovery about an Occupation era murder makes Odo reflect back on that time in his life and his relationship with Major Kira.

Elana: What’s my favorite episode? You’ll find out next time.

Sarah: People seem surprised when I say this is my favorite. They’ll say, ‘Oh yeah, that is a good one’, but it’s not the first thing that comes to mind or apparently what they associate with me. Um, but for me, it represents a lot of firsts for the series and sets up so much of what happens later in terms of character development and world building. It’s also just a really well made episode. It’s well directed, the performances are really strong, it– part of that is because it relies on some of the better actors on the show. Um, also my general taste, like beyond Star Trek, runs to quieter and more interior drama. So, I like that this episode has kind of a quiet intensity to it, that there’s no space battles, it’s a lot of talk. And the other thing about it is just like, it was kind of the right episode at the right time. It first aired right around when I started watching Deep Space Nine, and it was the first one I watched that– my reaction was ‘this is what this show is trying to accomplish that sets it apart from other Star Trek’ and I’m like 15 years old and just at the age where you’re starting to have thoughts like that. So, um, it’s an episode that means a lot to me, and we’ll get into some of the more specific reasons for that. But “Necessary Evil” is my favorite episode of Deep Space Nine. So, one of the things that I think people think about first related to it, and I know Elana, you had a lot of thoughts about this, so I kind of want to start here, is that it’s kind of the film noir episode.

Elana: Oh yeah. No, I mean, going back to when you and I were first talking about our plans for the podcast, one of the themes we had was like, ‘oh, we should do an episode about all the film noir references in the series’, but this is just a really great way to kind of talk about one of the most condensed places where it does show up. Uh, you know, the, the, even the lighting is more dramatic than usual, like more high key lighting than we normally have on the series. And it’s such a wonderful cold open on the femme fatale, just straight out of a movie from the forties, I’m just like ‘nailed it’.

Sarah: She’s in like this silk nightgown standing by a window on a rainy night, but at the same time like, she’s alien looking like she’s Bajoran, she’s got the earrings, she’s got the nose, her hairstyle is not 30s, so it’s like it’s making sure that we’re clear, ‘okay, this is an alien, we’re doing sci fi, but we’re still gonna really aggressively quote–

Elana: Mm hmm.

Sarah: this sort of pop culture touchstone.’

Elana: And she definitely wears a fascinator later– or two, a fascinator or two in the series that are very much period. So like, they have little– oh my god, but her pantsuit that she wears when you first see her. Even that being, right? Deep Space Nine, like a lot of Star Treks, that– often doesn’t have the costume budget that I wish it would, but they really, they really used it well in this episode for that. 

Sarah: Yeah, it was a lot of really simple costuming that was just– it’s, I think of like, when it shifts to your first view of Odo in the earlier time frame and he’s in this kind of like turtleneck and jacket and that also looks sort of 30s and 40s in the same way, but at the same time it still looks very Odo.

Elana: Mm hmm. Yeah.

Sarah: Then it’s almost like you wonder if some of this stuff was just off the rack or off the standard sort of like costume closet stuff that they just picked very simple things because they’re not trying to make it look as sci-fi as they often do, but at the same time it ends up looking very sci-fi because the lighting is different, there’s– one of the things that I want to get into is there’s barely humans in this episode.

Elana: Mm hmm. But I would just say that her, the pantsuit, the white jumpsuit outfit that she was wearing when we first see her, if that is off the rack, like, I want to know what rack that is from because it was a bold statement outfit and I’m very happy for her.

Sarah: Yeah, it’s um, and I think that when we’re talking about like this is an especially well made episode, I think that’s what we’re talking about too. It’s not just the act-acting and the direction, but there’s a lot of costume, and hair, and makeup, and set design, and props management that’s just really smart.

Elana: Yeah, totally. One of the things that we both had in our notes when we prepared was like… I think my note was literally like ‘Quark giving his best Humphrey Bogart’ and you brought up like ‘Quark as– literally as Rick from Casablanca’ we–

Sarah: Yeah, and that’s a thread kind of. Like I feel like there’s a number of episodes where he’s– either in the way he’s being shot or like literally in the story, he’s got the one with the old Cardassian ex-lover that’s literally just Casablanca, um, but that that sort equivalence comes up a lot in the show, and it’s one of the things that I think helps humanize the character, so to speak, or make the character not a villain but a sort of relatable and morally complex individual, is like ‘let us remind you that if he didn’t have the rubber helmet on, like we definitely have human equivalents to this kind of person.’

Elana: And also just like he really has this whole thing where he tries to pretend he’s completely amoral, that’s part of how he performs Ferengi-ness, but he actually does have this moral code. I mean, it’s like so fucking Rick from Casablanca. It’s just interesting also because in that opening exchange between him and the femme fatale, I mean– and that, their dialogue lines are just so fucking good. Um, he’s, he is playing the Peter Lorre role in Casa– like that kind of like role in that moment. Like he’s, his acting performance is very much physically evoking Humphrey Bogart, but like, he is being the Peter Lorre in that scene. Um, I’m also just obsessed with her saying, ‘at least the Cardassians kept the power on’. It reminded me so much of the cuckoo clock speech from The Third Man.

Sarah: Oh wow, yeah, you’re right. And then as you’re, and then as things unfold, you see that the Bajorans are keeping the power on just fine…

Elana: Mm hmm.

Sarah: …it’s her change in circumstances.

Elana: I, uh, the quickest attempt to explain the cuckoo clock speech, if you look up The Third Man, the Carol Reed film noir, starring Orson Wells and Joseph Cotten, there’s an exchange– well, one, go watch the fucking movie. I– I love that movie so much. But there’s an exchange where, basically one of the, one– a major character sort of explains why a little fascism is okay sometimes. He’s also the villain, so remember that. Anyway, but yeah, I– the way she puts that, you know, and it’s definitely a direct reference to like, ‘well, the Nazis kept the trains running on time’, and as much as we like, ‘yeah, like, okay, they’re not the space Nazis’, but that is what is being evoked in her bellyaching around that. And you’re right, like it’s important that the episode actually shows the way in which she’s just griping and it’s not actually, it’s not actually what’s going on.

Sarah: What she’s really griping about is that she can’t pay people off anymore to– or, you know, use other resources or her connections or whatever to live a certain lifestyle because the people who are now in power just see her as the lowest of the low.

Elana: For a reason.

Sarah: Oh, yeah. And for more reasons than it initially seems. Like it’s not just that she’s a collaborator, she’s just like a pile of awful. And I think it’s really important in Deep Space Nine, that for every alien species or most of the alien species we see, we see examples of really, of good people and people who are trying to be better, and we also just see that like, the Bajorans are notionally the good guys, but we get Kai Winn, and we get her. Like, there’s definitely some real awful Bajorans out there.

Elana: One last really big film noir thing that this episode calls to mind for me is it points out the way in which the whole captain’s log and, I don’t know what Odo calls his log, but the Odo’s log, the constable’s log, is itself a film noir device because it gives you the excuse for the first person narrator to be like, ‘so I was walking into her office that– you know, she, there she was walking through the door. I knew she would be trouble’. Like that whole like monologue that we associate with the film noir genre, like, the captain’s log is our sci-fi version of that, those logs, and I don’t think it was till I was watching this episode with that in mind that I was like, ‘well no wonder this is such a perfect tone setting because every episode, more or less every episode of Star Trek has somebody film noiring it out in their monologue to themselves in their little diary in the beginning.’

Sarah: Right. And just, I mean, it benefits, especially from René Auberjonois’ uniquely gravelly voice, just really lends itself to that film noir voiceover and also a way of sort of linking it to characterization is just later finding out that Odo is a really avid reader of trashy novels.

Elana: Yeah!

Sarah: That like when he’s creating, when he’s, you know, he’s speaking, but he’s effectively writing. Like, his go to is like, his voice is from a detective novel because he reads them.

Elana: Yeah.

Sarah: And at the same time, a lot of those voiceovers have a certain sort of like, wisdom and longing to them that’s really that kind of escapes those bounds. And it isn’t just a bunch of film noir cliches either.

Elana: Yeah. Yeah. He’s so much fun in this. Like what a great opportunity for him to have here and yeah. And Quark is just acting the fuck out of that scene with femme fatale. It would have been the fact that we like, believe him and her in that moment and that he can actually kind of come off as a little bit, like, less weaselly and more debonair in that fucking insane contraption covering so much of his head and face is really remarkable. And I don’t know that we see Quark effectively in that mode that much in this show, and we haven’t with him as Pel, I guess, right?

Sarah: Yeah,

Elana: Check out our last episode. But, yeah, it’s like a nice moment where he gets to really do that.

Sarah: I think we get it more than we realize that because Armin Shimerman is so good and really embraced the physicality of this part. Like– it’s one of those things where it’s like, we forget about– I always bring up “Little Green Men” when people start complaining about Ferengi episodes. I’m like, that’s such a hugely good episode, and that’s one where there’s a lot of emotional range. Um, but I do think that he, and I want to get into Rom because this is, this episode is a breakout moment for, for Rom and for Max Grodénchik, but, uh, both of them really take this opportunity to figure out how the physicality of the, of wearing those appliances affect how their emotions are coming off and really uses them and works with them rather than against them.

Elana: Yeah, let’s talk about Rom.

Sarah: Because this is the first episode where the show really figures out who Rom is. Like, in the first season when he shows up, he’s kind of like a mean idiot.

Elana: Mm hmm.

Sarah: To the point where like, there’s a suspicion that he has some kind of intellectual disability.

Elana: Yeah.

Sarah: And then this episode turns around and shows that he, it’s not like an intellectual inadequacy. It’s a combination of like, neurosis and not being intelligent in a way that’s valued by his culture.

Elana: Yeah. And just being bullied. I mean, he’s just–

Sarah: Yeah.

Elana: –he’s just been bullied his entire life.

Sarah: He’s smart and devious, but he’s awkward with no self confidence. So like, he doesn’t believe he’s smart because nobody in his entire life has ever told him he’s smart, but we as outsiders are seeing what’s going on. And it’s one of those things where the show gives enough information to contest what you’re being told about a character in a way that allows it to, without feeling like a massive retcon, just say like, ‘okay, here’s where we’re going with this from here on out’ and he validates that later when Odo is interrogating him and Odo is sort of making jokes about his intelligence, but then you’re sitting there going, okay, he saw this list for like 30 seconds, and it’s written in what is probably his third language, 

Elana: Yeah.

Sarah: and he managed to read a name and remember it with enough fidelity that he’s able to give Odo something to go on. And that does seem to change how Odo treats him later when Odo is giving him updates on Quark’s condition and Odo is taking him more seriously as like, ‘don’t you dare kill him just to get the bar because like, now I realize you’re capable of it.’

Elana: Do you think Odo suspects him at one point? Or is he just being like that?

Sarah: Oh yeah! Well, it’s, I mean, Odo suspects everybody who has a reason to harm somebody.

Elana: Which is pretty much everybody.

Sarah: Right. Like, it’s Odo’s nature.

Elana: There’s such good dialogue that just feels very noir throughout the whole episode. Like the whole, um, ‘she knew you couldn’t resist opening’. ‘I’m sorry’, ‘me too’, and then shoot– I mean, like, they’re going straight for the genre reference points in this. Like, they know their shit, and it works so well. I-I’m curious how that reads to people who aren’t as familiar, I guess. But…

Sarah: Yeah, I wonder if that is one of the reasons why it’s not considered, like, an all-timer is that it relies on a certain amount of viewer knowledge to come off as, not just a pretty good episode, but one that’s really doing something very creative.

Elana: That makes sense. And it’s one thing for a science fiction show to do something that’s pulling from a science fiction agecent genre, but there can be less, necessarily, of an assumption amongst the film noir nerds and stuff like that. 

Sarah: And I think as this episode becomes older, all of the things it’s referencing that are already 40 or 50 years old when this episode happens, are now even another generation older and are coming up on a century old now in some cases.

Elana: Yeah. It’s insane to think about.

Sarah: So the expectation that like a teenager who finds this streaming and watches it for the first time is going to pick up on the references that to them are so old–

Elana: Mm hmm.

Sarah: Like they were already old to us. There were already lots of people our age watching it when it aired who would not have gotten these and we only got them because we were giant nerds–

Elana: A particular kind of nerd.

Sarah: of a way specific kind.

Elana: You know what you’re making me think, I, we should at the end of the episode give people some film noir suggestions for viewing for folks who, this might, who might not have been aware of. Who, you know, might be looking for a place to go if they’re into this sort of thing.

Sarah: Yeah. Um, yeah, I did not do my homework on that one, so it’s probably gonna have to be you, but go for it.

Elana: No problem.

Sarah: Yeah. And at the same time, and this sort of brings me to the next point on my list, is while it’s incredibly grounded in sort of 20th century Western pop culture, it’s also incredibly alien. Um, O’Brien doesn’t appear. Dax, who is an alien but is sort of human allied, especially in a situation like this, does not appear. Bashir has like two lines. Sisko pops in and out, but doesn’t have a whole lot to do. They’re never in any way the point of view character, it’s really these groups of aliens who are shown as, you know, relatable, but still very alien. And it’s sort of aliens acting out this very familiar thing in a certain way.

Elana: Yeah. I just– it’s such a cool thing that they have built out different other species’ cultures and histories and the complexities of their interactions with each other so much at this point in the series that they don’t need any humans.

Sarah: And this is, you know, to be clear, this is a season and a half into this show.

Elana: Yeah, exactly. Season two. 

Sarah: It’s season two, and while we’ve seen all of these aliens before, except for changelings, there was not a lot of depth put into like, Bajoran culture or Ferengi culture as cultures before Deep Space Nine. So the fact that we have enough reference to see the underlying cultural norms that would produce both a Kira Nerys and um, Mrs. Vaatrick, and we can say like ‘those people are both acting like Bajorans.’

Elana: Mm hmm.

Sarah: Um, it’s really remarkable and I mean, part of it is that back then you got, you know, a billion episodes per season, but back then things were also very episodic and reset and didn’t focus on creating that kind of lore and world building. So it’s, that’s what’s, that’s really very remarkable. It’s also one of the other firsts. Um, the Occupation has been frequently referenced to this point, but this is the first time we get a flashback and see what Deep Space Nine looked like when it was Terok Nor, and it seems very long ago and far away. And then late in the episode, Odo reminds us this was five years ago. This was like, not that long ago.

Elana: There’s a moment where, like, when later in the end of the episode, when, Odo is like, ‘you know, you’ve known me for, we’ve been free for a year, and you haven’t’, and I was just like, ‘Odo, that is no time at all! No time at all!’

Sarah: Yeah, it feels very– there’s this sense of like things being both very recent and very long ago and far away that I think as like our current, you know, political situation in a lot of ways has that feeling to it, like, I think that that stands out more now than it might have in the 90s, or is at least more relatable to us as, as Americans living in a very different time than we were then.

Elana: Yeah.

Sarah: That like, how much and how little changes in a five year period.

Elana: It’s just so funny to hear them not quite own it in the way that it feels like, really clear to me, you know?

Sarah: I think, and this is something that has been brought up in a very different context at other times in this podcast. Odo is very young, so there’s also– he might be young enough that like a year or five years does really feel like a long time as a percentage of his life.

Elana: How, how long would this have been for him?

Sarah: It’s not clear. I think that this is one of those things that people have tried to map out, but he’s like, he’s probably developmentally a teenager in the flashbacks. Like he’s young, young.

Elana: It’s, I mean, René Auberjonois just acts the fuck through that ridiculous mask, and there’s just these moments where you see his eyes change or soften– like, the look on his face when, um, I believe I put it as, ‘Odo was acting the fuck out of that mask when Kira looks like she’s about to cry in his office’. Like, I mean, it just, his whole, his eyes just completely soften. It is, it is a different thing.

Sarah: Yeah. And it’s really remarkable that an actor of his age is able to convincingly play a character who is so much younger. And I think because of the age difference between the actor and the character you can sometimes forget that. But I think that this is an episode that draws attention to the fact that Odo is very young and he’s naive, even in the present at this point in the show.

Elana: Hmm. Do you think Kira is bad at lying, like he says she is?

Sarah: Hmm. I feel like it’s, you know what? I think she is, but not always in the way that the show intends.I think there are times when the script tells us that her lies are, um, you know, passing the deception role, but though– either intentionally or unintentionally, and I tend to give Deep Space Nine actors the benefit of the doubt, that, um, that Nana Visitor plays scenes where Kira is lying or especially when she’s hiding her past, um, that she often plays it so that Kira has a lot of tells. 

Elana: That’s cool. Yeah,

Sarah: But it’s realistic to say that, like, just meeting her, Odo wouldn’t necessarily recognize those tells yet, 

Elana: Right.

Sarah: but by, by the show’s present, he would recognize those tells.

Elana: It’s just interesting because he says that to her so early on that she’s not a good liar, and it made me really wonder, like– it feels like he’s doing a noir act to her, and sometimes, like, when he tries to pull a, ‘what’s a young lady like you doing in a place like this?’ And she’s like, ‘don’t fucking talk to me. I will knife you’. It was like, wonderful, her calling him on his, like, posture. But I kind of viewed that almost as one of his other moments where he’s trying to do an act of how he feels like he’s supposed to be in this situation.

Sarah: Yeah. And not knowing and being, again, young, and also not having probably a lot of good models for how people talk to Bajoran women, especially.

Elana: Yes.

Sarah: Like, he’s probably never met anybody who didn’t objectify Bajoran women.

Elana: Yeah. I don’t think it occurred to him that it wasn’t going to go well, like, at all. At all. And she just sort of blew his mind. It’s almost like, ‘did you know that we are also people? My god’. And I liked how he absorbed her perspective of what was so fucked up about it. So then when like Quark tries to lie about her, even though she wants Quark to lie about her, he takes offense at her behalf in a way that he wouldn’t have before that conversation perhaps.

Sarah: Yeah, and I think something that’s very consistent about Odo is that, in a way that facilitates being a creature that can change his shape, he adapts very readily to his own observations, unless he’s got an emotional reason to not want to take it in. So he adapts to what he’s observing about Kira, which is she is a person with motivations, and reflects that back. He adapts to seeing that Rom is in fact a competent individual and changes the way he interacts with Rom. And to me one of the challenges of watching Odo do anything is that he is definitely the police state, and he very much has a policing and carceral mentality that is much harder to cheer for in 2024 than it was in the 90s. But at the same time, his ability to respond adaptively and to not presume ill will when he can see something else going on with somebody is a rejection of one of the things that we really object to about policing.

Elana: Yeah. Like he’s sort of the idealized, ‘well if they were like this, it wouldn’t be a fucking, you know, nightmare game.’

Sarah: And there are times when he isn’t that flexible and it’s really frustrating because like you want him to show that potential and that goodness that makes it okay to see him as your heroic even if you’ve got big problems with his desire to just like throw everybody in jail. ‘Cause he really does still want to throw everybody in jail, and you could kind of laugh at it most of the time.

Elana: And do you feel like it’s because he wants to create order? Like is that, or like what, is that what he wants to throw everybody in jail?

Sarah: Yeah, he, it’s– and one of the things that I noted is that, at first your instinct is to say, well, ‘during the occupation, this was like, you know the Wild West, and then the Federation showed up and the place is still ungovernable. It’s unpoliceable’. So I think it’s coming more out of exasperation than anything else. Um, and how frequently someone like Sisko will look at Odo and be like, ‘you cannot just put him in jail’. That like, it’s a perspective that is sympathized with, but not permitted free reign.

Elana: Yeah. Yeah. Speaking of Rom from before, uh, and aliens, I do believe this is the episode that first establishes that Ferengi shriek at an incredibly high, loud decibel system as part of the early Ferengi warning system.

Sarah: Yes. And Max Grodénchik’s unaugmented no like sound effect, like they just had him go in and shriek.

Elana: It was amazing.

Sarah: Like, I think some of it was, I think some of it was looped. But it was definitely him, yeah.

Elana: It’s him. And like, I just love this idea of this being like an evolutionary development. The Ferengi were like, ‘what sound can we produce that’s so obnoxious that others will stay away? I know! Or immediately come running to aid us? I know!’ Oh god.

Sarah: And yeah, I think what you’re pointing out is that despite being a pretty heavy episode in a lot of ways, there are moments that are just goofy. And it lets them be that sort of like dark laughter. And that’s the big one, where Rom is just shrieking.

Elana: It’s the recent changes, but the shriek lives on.

Sarah: Yes. So we’ve talked about the big reference here, which is to film noir and film noir adjacent cinema from like the 1930s to the early 1950s. But I pulled out a bunch of other points of reference that I think are throughout the series, like film noir, but also really concentrated here, and that they’re more in reference to Odo specifically. And I want to go over the quicker one first and the one that you’re gonna have to like, rein me in a little bit next. Um, so, there’s a lot of Sherlock Holmes moments for Odo.

Elana: Yeah.

Sarah: And Star Trek loves it some Sherlock Holmes. It was a huge thing, obviously, throughout Next Generation, like, there’s literally a holodeck version of Moriarty that gains sentience. It’s a, you know, it’s a big through line in the Next Generation. It doesn’t really carry through to Deep Space Nine in the same way, but there’s all these little moments where Odo is noticing little things that are outside of typical perception. And sometimes he’s showing off a little, and sometimes it’s very matter of fact that he doesn’t realize that it’s not something that everybody would know. And when he’s trying to get Rom to recall, he’s using this sort of like–

Elana: Memory castle.

Sarah: Yeah, the memory castle visualization techniques. And one of the things that came to mind for me, and especially in both of my like backward references are going to have a forward reference because I have been consuming some pop culture this week that I’ve really liked, was thinking forward to, um, the premiere of the TV show Elsbeth on CBS, which is the first network show in quite a while that I have given a shit about. And that’s about a detective character that is very intentionally positioned as neurodivergent. And the question is, and this is an open question for me, because Odo is definitely not neurodivergent like I am, and he’s not frequently read by like neurodivergent fans of the show as being their sort of like neurodiversity touchstone.

But what do you think of Odo’s portrayal as neurodivergent in this episode and sort of more broadly?

Elana: I’m surprised that more people don’t identify that as him. And I have to wonder if it’s because they don’t identify with him and therefore that’s not something that they want to see, because I think it’s very clear.

Sarah: Yeah, because he’s really set up as the sort of like Spock/Data lineage character where he’s the outsider, and while there’s definitely a lot of fondness for Odo and people really latch on to him for other reasons, the one that I see autistic people in particular getting stuck on is Bashir, and the one that I see people with non-autistic ADHD getting stuck on is Dax. 

Elana: Yeah.

Sarah: That like Odo seems to, to be neurologically atypical in a way that seems very alien.

Elana: I also just think he’s, it might be, if we’re looking and thinking about conversations that are happening now versus before, because remember listeners, I was not part of active Star Trek fandom back in the day. If we’re looking at conversations that are happening now, I think he’s just too cop-coded for people. They are choosing not to see it.

Sarah: Yeah, that makes sense that he’s too cop-coded. And I think like beyond that, a lot of the, a lot of his behavior, some of it stemming from being cop-coded and some of it just you know, stemming from other things is, traits and behaviors that we don’t want to identify in ourselves, that we kind of want to reject in ourselves. And I think that was true at the time as well, that Odo is a really difficult character.

Elana: Sure. Yeah. I mean, I definitely think, you know, when you were telling me how much you had related to him early on, I was also like, ‘what?’, because I didn’t want to see that either. You know what I mean?

Sarah: Yeah. So my other, and again, we’re, I’m going to be looking back in order to look forward and to connect some things that like make sense only in my head. Um, hopefully not–

Elana: I don’t think only in your head.

Sarah: Yeah, I think that like at least the looking backward part where the– so I see Odo figured clearly here and even more clearly and other things later on as a Frankenstein’s monster figure. Like he was literally raised by, I hesitate to say mad scientist, but definitely like an outsider scientist, um, who is an odd and quirky individual, and that one of the wonderful things about Odo’s relationship with Dr. Mora is that they do find a way to have a parent child bond and to find a kind of love for each other and a way to forgive each other. That’s really one of the, one of the things I love most about Odo’s character is that he’s depicted as moving toward forgiveness in that relationship and really wanting to have a parent, but at the same time he’s literally raised in a lab and he’s brought out as a specimen that does tricks, and one of the things that doesn’t really happen in Shelley and kind of happens in some later adaptations, but really explicitly– there is a great speech in the movie Poor Things, which I literally saw yesterday and which I went with a friend and we looked at each other at the end of this very long, very intense movie and we just looked at each other and we’re like, ‘well, that was great, let’s go get a drink’. And we sat for an hour talking about this movie, and this is one where it takes the psychology of being Frankenstein’s monster to an extent that I think Deep Space Nine also in some of its better moments with Odo also ends up doing. And one of the things that resonated with me was Odo talking about how he went to Terok Nor because he realized he was at a point where he was always going to be a specimen and not a person if he stayed with Dr. Mora. And so he left and went somewhere where nobody knew him. And there’s a very similar moment in Poor Things, where the main character is also literally a lab experiment, and that is the only thing I can say without uh….

Elana: Sure sure, and I– I’ve heard people- I’ve heard critics draw that comparison. I haven’t seen the movie yet, I’m very much looking forward to it–

Sarah: It’s intentional, it’s not just critics. Um, like the director has drawn the comparison, like it’s intentional and it’s systematic. But I think it’s something that, um, the Deep Space Nine writing and production team were aware of enough to continually quote it for Odo. And what’s fascinating to me is that it doesn’t get quoted nearly as much for Data or for, um, the Doctor on Voyager as it does for Odo.

Elana: Why do you think that is? Did the others simply forget or?

Sarah: I think it’s that– it might be that Odo is more monstrous.

Elana: Yeah.

Sarah: That both because of his association later on with the Founders and just because, like, Data is very whimsical. The Doctor is crusty, but in a way that’s not threatening. There’s some real menace to Odo. Like, there’s a real sense that Odo is a person who could snap. And it’s not just a malfunction like it would be with Data or the Doctor.

Elana: And also Odo is even more of a person than Data or the Doctor, right? Like, Odo is organic.

Sarah: Yeah, um.

Elana: I wonder if that lends itself partially to the metaphor, because Frankenstein is ‘made out of people! Ah, ooh, people’. Sorry, I had to bring in a different, unrelated science fiction movie to it, but…

Sarah: And just to fully belabor something that I do go back to with Odo a lot because it’s so important, is that in a way, being, um, sort of delivered into the political circumstances that his discovery brought him to, he is this like sort of cultural hybrid of Bajorans, and Cardassians, and later Federation culture, and then we get the moment where he literally merges with a trill and, that there is– that he is this sort of amalgam of different cultural and psychological elements that he builds himself out of because he’s not, he isn’t like anybody else. And something I’m actually thinking of is when he meets Worf and Worf– like he’s met Klingons before, but Worf is the first Klingon he’s really had, like, an emotional connection to or emotional relationship with, and seeing some Klingon things in himself that he’s never really seen from any of the other cultures he’s interacted with. And finding some satisfaction in that. 

Elana: Yeah, totally. I want to talk about the neck trick. I love how horrified the series is consistently about it and how much they just really need us to know how unacceptable and dehumanizing it is that this was something he was forced to do to as a freak basically, for the Cardassians. And that we never see it. Chef’s kiss, excellent.

Sarah: And it’s, and there’s callbacks to it throughout the series. And we never see it because he never has to do it again, because he’s been liberated from it.

Elana: And like so many shows would have felt the need to explain it or show it as a flashback  or– because they would they would believe that their viewers needed to witness it. And in fact, I would even think that perhaps under modern fan culture you would see fans explain what it would be and theorize and there’d be videos and this and that, but no then they’re like no, it’s not appropriate, that’s why it doesn’t happen.

Sarah: Right. And one of the brilliant things that the script does is it contrasts that Cardassian neck trick with ‘nobody had to teach me the justice’ trick. That like that’s something that he sees as innate about himself, and there’s this tragedy of him saying, maybe the rest of my kind are like that, and then you meet them and you’re like, ‘fuck, no, that’s an Odo trait, not a species trait’.

Elana: Which I think says something even better about him, although I also think in a meta way it shows that these, they hadn’t figured out what his people were gonna be at that point. But um, I do think it’s better that it’s just him and not… I don’t like the thought of inborn racial traits. But people think that way about themselves. They absolutely do. So it’s not unreasonable or unusual that he might wonder or think about this, especially in lieu of having any other information. I’m not saying Odo’s bad for wondering this or thinking this, I just don’t like when stories validate it.

Sarah: Right. And, you know, when we’re saying, ‘why is he the kind of person who wants to throw everybody in jail?’, that does seem to have some kind of like instinctual species component where in the same way Ferengi have envolved– have evolved shrieking, that the, that changelings have evolved like that’s a response to threat like…

Elana: Yeah, their threat response. They say that. What’s her name says that, right? It’s like, ‘well, we do this because you guys all tried to like eat us or whatever’.

Sarah: Yeah, um, so maybe it is worthwhile to say that a lot of the things that we really are frustrated with about Odo are sort of, on some level species-based threat responses and that in his better moments, he overcomes the threat response and becomes somebody who’s driven by a much higher sense of justice. And recognizing that sometimes justice means letting the guilty go free, which is the moral of the story here.

Elana: The punchline here for sure. Who do you think, or what do you think, Odo told Gul Dukat at the end of the day?

Sarah: Yeah, because that’s never answered. We know from other depictions of the Cardassian justice system that Odo saying, ‘I don’t know, I couldn’t figure it out’, is not acceptable. And I’ve never had a satisfying answer to that, I don’t think the episode tells us.

Elana: It’s really hard to think about.

Sarah: Yeah.

Elana: Kira shows so much trust in him, in her being like, straight up, I will tell you that I am a terrorist so that you don’t think I’m a murderer. Like, what an insane gambit, right?

Sarah: Yeah.

Elana: She’s right. It paid off because her instinct, her, not her instinct, but her, her educated guess that this was a person who would see the bigger picture or could see the bigger picture, you know, paid off.

Sarah: And that sort of amplifies the idea that part of Odo’s sense of justice is that the Bajoran resistance is morally right to the point where he’s never gonna implicate the resistance because it would not be just to punish them any more than they’re already being punished.

Elana: Yeah. Which is interesting, right? Because somebody could like be against the occupation and still say like, ‘but I don’t think it’s okay for you guys to, you know, be murdering traitors’. Like, that’s an opinion that I think a lot of people would certainly have. And so it’s extra brave that she doesn’t think he’d even hold that, you know? What do you think about the scene where they’re seen in the office at the end?

Sarah: I think it’s an incredi–, like, I think the ambiguity of the scene is really beautiful. That like, there’s no emotional ambiguity, but there’s narrative ambiguity and I think that’s really hard to pull off. And I think that is fully the actors. Um, and I think there is a reason why that scene is generally perceived as the beginning of the Odo and Kira romance.

Elana: Yeah, for sure.

Sarah: Because whether you’re perceiving that as romantic love or as something else, there’s no way to come out of that scene without believing that he feels a type of love for her.

Elana: Yeah. I mean, he could see through even her bad wig.

Sarah: Oh my god, that, that bad, bad hair extension with the ponytail, oh my god.

Elana: Well, it’s funny because like it made sense for the show to give her very different looking hair for a flashback.

Sarah: And also something that they could clip to the back of her head in 10 minutes because…

Elana: Yeah, exactly. You know, so it’s like, yeah, that’s why it looks like that. But it is so funny, it’s like, ‘yeah, it’s not your look, it’s not your look’.

Sarah: Yeah, I feel like, um, there was a whole lot of ‘not your look’ for poor Kira Nerys throughout the show.

Elana: I know. It’s so crazy. They’re like, ‘okay, we’re gonna cast this really gorgeous woman and then just do really weird things with her hair and makeup for years on end.’

Sarah: Yeah, like definitely–

Elana: What a strange choice!

Sarah: Like definitely the pixie cut was the was the look hair wise, but they paired that with blush decisions that even by a 90s standard it was like come on.

Elana: What in the name. It’s so funny because like they okay they have like Terry Farrell and they’re like ‘okay this really gorgeous actress, and we’ve decided that the right way to handle this is to not do weird shit to her because her character isn’t that kind of woman and you don’t need to paint shit on her to look great. Great. We’re done. Okay. Now we have this other really gorgeous actress. We have decided to keep doing really weird things to her hair and makeup’. I don’t know why. I mean, part of it is like, they can’t decide how butch they’re going to let Kira be at any given point in time. And so all of the weird decisions that they make about styling her is all a negotiation with how butch to femme, they are going to allow this character to appear on screen. That’s my theory.

Sarah: Yeah, I mean, yours is the plausible and it is backed up by, like, subsequent, discussion of the show that, yeah, like, they had to put her in corsets, which were miserable, and they had, they could not make her, they could not make her look more like an action hero than a certain point, and there were certain members of the production staff who, enforced that rigorously.

I like my like no prize internal story of she’s like all of our Holocaust survivor grandmas who like never went out without a full face of makeup and went to the hair salon twice a week and did not leave the house without wearing heels because they understood the emotional value of being high femme at all times.

Elana: Yeah, no, yeah, I mean, literally my grandma, like literally my grandma. Exactly. Multiple times. Save her life during the Holocaust, including in Auschwitz, by performing femininity and like the most insane extreme circumstances. You know, uh, becoming the most obsessive cleaner person, for example. It’s just what prevented her from getting murdered. It’s it’s very, very real. So it’s real, real trauma survivor woman. Shit.  Um, so I really do think you’ve got some great, no prize analysis there.  And it also explains why she doesn’t really know what exactly looks good on her. 

Sarah: Yes. Um, and I think that, and I, because we do keep going back to, um, Holocaust references here in a way that we usually tell our guests not to, I think it’s both because when it’s just the two of us we feel like we’re not going to step on each other’s toes that way, but also because I feel like this is one of the few episodes of any Star Trek that approaches that question in a way that’s not incredibly frustrating for me.

Elana: Yeah. This episode does so many hard things well.

Sarah: Yeah, and I think that’s why I like it is because I’ve, I am as sort of a viewer of media always like the level of difficulty person. And like, one of the reasons I love this is, it goes back to that sort of like quiet intensity, like it’s, it’s easy to screw up and go overboard with a big drama episode, but it’s also easy to be impressive with those kinds of moves, and it’s much harder to be impressive in an episode that has very few big dramatic moments and is mostly, um, it’s almost like sustaining tension rather than building it.

Elana: Hmm.

Sarah: And I think that that’s something that’s respected in, like, prestige films and not just literary novels, but also a lot of genre fiction that like, we respect that in other contexts, but it’s less likely to get acknowledgement as strength when we’re watching TV.

Elana: Hear hear. 

Sarah: One of the, and there are like, there are lines in this episode. This is an episode that is scripted very well, but the line that kept returning to me as I was watching this time for the billionth time that I’ve seen this episode was, Dukat asks Odo if he’s ever seen a dead person before, and Odo says, ‘yes, in the mines’ and

Dukat–

Elana: Your mines, in your mines, so good.

Sarah: In your mines, you’re right, you mines. And Dukat says, ‘those are casualties, this is murder’. And he says it very matter of factly.

Elana: Yeah, which is the only Dukat way. Dukat has never said anything that wasn’t like, ‘I am telling you exactly how it is’, despite the fact that he is definitely not the best determiner of anything.

Sarah: Yeah.

Elana: His full confidence in his rightness is…

Sarah: He also has a Worf level of believing very strongly that his pronouncements are reflective of Cardassian culture as a whole, and them not being at all. And then, you know, you’ll see random Cardassian number eight going in and saying, ‘oh, by the way, he’s full of shit’. Um, yeah, and like so many completely unreliable Dukat lines, it has an incredibly resonant truth to it. Because every physical or emotional injury that you see throughout the rest of the episode leaves you wondering, like, ‘was that a casualty or was that a murder?’

Elana: Yeah. I also think there’s something about like, Dukat, trying to swagger about like, ‘look at this tough guy situation I’m bringing you into’. With being like, this is the reality that your people have created for everyone else around you, actually.

Sarah: Yeah. And also, just the irony of Dukat dismissing all of those other Bajoran lives and then taking such an interest in this Bajoran life.

Elana: And of course we get such a good explanation why. I mean, that’s one of the things which I think really, that’s one of the central things, I think, to how Odo solves this case. Is him understanding what would it make, ‘why would Dukat want me to be the guy who figures it out instead?’

Sarah: And one of the other things that the show, that this episode suggests, is– it centers around a chemist’s shop and Odo’s saying, ‘I don’t use chemicals’. And that line makes you wonder what else is going in and out of that chemist’s shop other than ginger tea, but the episode doesn’t focus on it, it just lets you know that maybe something’s happening. And I think it does that in a lot of ways that it’s like, ‘we’re just gonna throw that out there and we’re not going to tell you what’s happening.’

Elana: Right. No that’s very smart. There’s another moment I’m a little obsessed with when, um, one of the few Sisko moments in the show, where Sisko says to Odo, ‘you look like you lost your best friend’. And it’s really like Odo thinking about Quark, who he certainly doesn’t consider his best friend, except like, there really is that friendship underneath it all. And it’s funny because it’s also like, I guess Sisko’s the one, first person to call it.

Sarah: Yeah.

Elana: You didn’t know, but…

Sarah: Except that maybe he did. Like, Sisko’s pretty on the ball with that stuff.

Elana: I guess, but I guess I just mean that I don’t know that Sisko had a sense of what Odo was thinking about in that moment. 

Sarah: You’re right, you’re right. Um, but yeah, you know, talk about, setting things up that are going to be major emotional arcs of the whole show.

Elana: Mm hmm.

Sarah: Yeah, so basically we’ve kind of looped back to where we began, which is one of the great things about this episode. And one of the reasons why, if somebody listening to this has not revisited this episode in a while, should go back to it is how much of the rest of the series is built in this one episode. How much of…

Elana: Mm hmm.

Sarah: And how much in retrospect, an episode that as you noted with things like ‘they didn’t know who the founders were yet when they wrote this one’, how much retrospectively still works, and how delicate the rest of the show has to be built to take this fairly standalone second, season episode and make it so that it seems like it’s predicting the entire rest of the show.

Elana: Right on. And with that, I think we have our episode!

Sarah: I think we do.

Elana: Well, I do want to give the kids the world’s least inspired, most literal, but also, fairly indisputable quick hit list of some film noir movies to check out if you are curious in the genre. I think if anybody is interested in mysteries, women who are mad, bad, and dangerous to know, really good art direction, lighting, styling, dramatic costumes, people who aren’t generically good looking but are interestingly good looking, powerful, interesting voices, and movies that are not designed to make you cry messy and ugly all over the place. I don’t do sad very well. I love film noir, it is my comfort genre, as it were. And if you’re looking for a few movies to start with, I am actually not pointing you at any neo-noirs at all. These are all OG flavor with suggesting A Touch of Evil, Double Indemnity, Big Heat, The Maltese Falcon, and Laura. Again, the least surprising, least, uh… there are no edgy, surprising, or unique picks, but I give this to you because it is a great starting point for movies that I am sure you will enjoy. And, incidentally, many of them are very short. You can fit them into your lives very nicely.

Sarah: Absolutely! It’s an unimpeachable list. Like, every single one of those is a classic and a movie that you can pick up now and, time has not dulled them a bit.

Elana: Mm hmm, hear, hear. It’s not, I’m not telling you to eat your broccoli. This is 100 percent fun times. Uh, and as for me, when you’re interested in good opinions about things, you can find me hanging out on Bluesky, where my handle is @levin, that’s my last name, at Levin, and of course I’m always hosting Graphic Policy Radio. And I am still on the other evil site, predominantly for work reasons, but that handle is @Elana_Brooklyn. And where can they find you, Sarah?

Sarah: I have completely ditched and disavowed that other site. Um, the one that used to have a bird on it. But I am on Bluesky. And because I copy my awesome friends, my Bluesky handle is Rasher, @rasher.bsky.social. And I also have– especially because we were talking a lot about film in this episode– my letterboxd where I review everything I watch in a sentence or two, is pas_dechat. I have a newsletter that is currently on hiatus but might not be for long. I will start publicizing that when that starts existing. But yeah, that’s sort of where we are.

Elana: Excellent. Does Odo have any final thoughts for us this episode?

Sarah: I think Odo’s given us nothing but thoughts for an hour and Odo says he’s just going back to, back to his bucket for a while because wow, that was a lot of attention.Elana: Oh my god, you know our cat Axel Rose literally loves to hang out in the bucket I use for hand washables, and so Frank has started to refer to that as Axel’s bucket. He’s like ‘Axel, are you in your bucket like Odo?’ He is in his bucket like Odo. And with that, have a great night. If you like the show, start it, review it, and share it, and we’ll be back with you soon!


Episode Guide

1. Season 2, Episode 8
2. Casablanca 
3. The Third Man
4. Pel Episode
5. Season 4, Episode 7
6. Moriarty appears in:
TNG Season 2 Episode 3, “Elementary, Dear Data” 
TNG Season 6 Episode 12, “Ship in a Bottle”
7. Elsbeth
8. Poor Things
9. A Touch of Evil 
10. Double Indemnity
11. The Big Heat
12. The Maltese Falcon
13. Laura

Jude Doyle on The Neighbors, his new horror comic series

“Everything you’re doing is a perfectly logical way to save your own life”

Horror author and cultural critic Jude Ellison S. Doyle returns to the podcast to talk about his new comic book series, The Neighbors with art by Letizia Cadonici and Alessandro Santoro

A queer family moves to a small town in this tale of folk horror published by BOOM! Studios. The comic is rich with Celtic mythology. It wrestles with heartbreaking realities we face today —especially for trans and disabled readers. Our conversation ranges from the what makes a horror story resonate to the power of reassessing your own writing, while not trying to twist yourself for bad faith readers.

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Elana: Hello, welcome to Graphic Policy Radio. This is your host, Elana Levin. This is where comics and politics meet. and this is a comics podcast. Lunar New Year is being celebrated in the background of my street as I record this, which we could all use a little bit more of, right? ‘Cause it’s dark as fuck right now. So, I am– speaking of dark as fuck right now, I have a guest joining me again and we will be talking about his amazing new horror comic. I will be talking with Jude Ellison Doyle, who is back on the show to talk about his new GLAAD Award nominated Comic “The Neighbors”, which is released now in a softcover graphic novel format. The blurb is: “‘The Neighbors’ are anything but what they seem. When Janet and Oliver Gowdy moved to a quaint mountain town, their teenage daughter Casey and two-year-old Isabelle became part of a horrific chain of events that will forever change their family. It’s impossible to know who to trust and who is still human. Casey’s behavior is increasingly unpredictable. Janet is more distant. Isabelle is happy-go-lucky and seems to enjoy the attention poured on her by Agnes. And Oliver? He’s out to uncover what malevolent forces seem to have taken root under and inside his home. Steeped in Celtic, Irish, and English folklore, Jude Ellison Doyle, writer of “Maw”, joins artist Letizia Cadonici from “House of Slaughter” and colorist Alessandro Santoro from “Bloom” to tread new ground in Changeling Horror, a tale perfect for fans of “Eat the Rich” and “The Nice House on the Lake”.’ Again, nominated for the GLAAD Award. Welcome back to the show, Jude.

Jude: Thank you, thank you so much for having me. I’m so excited.

Elana: I was so glad when you reached out. I really loved our last conversation about “Maw”, so I’m happy to have you back and I’m a big fan of your writing. Love your newsletter, people should go subscribe to it.

Jude: You’re perhaps too kind there, but I’ll try to be a good conversation for you. I’ll try to live up to my not very high standards, but you know. 

Elana: I am not too kind. I’m deeply evil. I don’t know what you’re talking about. What, this is your second graphic novel and, uh, what were things that brought you– that brought you to this from your earlier horror works?

Jude: I really wanted to– after “Maw”, which was just like this big angry scream of rage, and when I wrote “Maw” I wasn’t sure that I was ever gonna get to do another comic, so I just kind of threw everything at it. Um, “The Neighbors” was sort of by design a more low-key work, but it was a chance to get into Changeling mythology, which I always love. I think it’s so creepy and horrible and so revealing of like the fractures within families or the terror of parenting. You know, you read these old accounts of women who would just like go and set their babies out in the woods and they’d have to walk away without looking back. And if they came back and a wolf had eaten their baby, then that was probably their baby. But if the baby was still there and alive, then they had successfully exchanged the changeling. Like just this horrible stark stuff about relationships between parents and kids. That felt to me, for whatever reason, because my own life had entered sort of a quiet phase where I was transitioning and I was out in the country and I was finally getting used to being a parent where it didn’t feel like constant terror anymore. Even though there’s like, always like a low level of terror when you’re parenting a kid. It felt like the ability to go inward and write a more paranoid story about a family that can’t trust its members anymore and that is sort of fracturing apart, um, along its many embedded fault lines, that felt exciting to me.

Elana: Mm. I, uh, was struck. There are so many times, and we’ll get into, we’ll get into this in a little bit, but there are so many moments in the book that were so resonant with things that I’m dealing with or seeing with other people or re-experiencing in the world today. Um, without being like, this isn’t, you know, it’s, this is not like a literal comic about stuff that just happened, right. But it’s, it has such a contemporary feel to the metaphorical work you’re doing as well as the literal work. It’s really intense.

Jude: Yeah. Well, it just, it felt, again, this was one of those things where like some things you trudge your way through coming up with a plot and it works. This fell together. It felt like something I’d been writing in the back of my head without meaning to, and it just like– the basic question of are your children who they say they are? Do you understand your children as well as most parents assume they do? How far does someone have to change before it’s not them anymore? Is changing your body the same thing as changing you? These are all questions that get stirred up in the paranoia and constant hand wringing about youth transition specifically, but about like transition writ large. And it felt like to me it might be- because this was gonna be like the first major thing I wrote after I came out, I wrote “Maw” before I came out and then it came out–

Elana: Oh–

Jude: Like that summer, the summer that I told people I was trans was also like “Maw” came out. So it was the first thing with my name on it, but it was not like something I wrote consciously knowing I was trans all the way through. This was gonna be like my first big project as a trans person. And I thought, okay, like what I would like to convey, not that I think that any good story is reducible down to a single message, but just like as much as everyone and their cousin and their brother is scared of trans people and trans kids right now, I want you to think about how scary it is to be the only one of you stranded in a place where no one is like you. I want you to think about how scary it is to be trans right now and to wonder if you can trust your own family or trust your own community and, that thing of one person, looking like a different person, but being far more authentic to who they are and someone else, not to, blow spoilers all over the map, but other people maybe looking exactly the way they always have been but being someone very different inside that it just, the symmetry of it felt really neat. 

Elana: Yeah. Yeah. I mean, I think you do an amazing job of conveying Oliver’s experience. Oliver is one of the protagonists in the story, he is the trans man and he’s the one doing the detective-ing, as it were. But feeling his experience as being a part and separate that predates him coming to the realization of his own gender identity, and I like how that plays out throughout his life there. And the way you interweave– the way the timelines of these characters’ stories with the flashbacks is really well done in advance. So like bravo to you for pulling that off in your second comic series, because I, I always was very clear when, and, and this is obviously also to the credit of the art team, but it’s always very clear to me when and how things are happening and why despite the story taking place in so many different places and times in these characters’ lives.

Jude: Right, like it’s sort of intentionally really dreamlike and the timeline being out of whack is part of that. But I think hopefully that you stay pretty much on course with the plot throughout. But I really wanna shout out Letizia because I was so nervous writing the script. Like, ‘okay, this is when Oliver hasn’t transitioned yet, but he’s still not a gender conforming person. This is maybe. Four months into transition, there are changes but it’s nothing obvious yet’, like going back and forth through somebody’s history like that especially if you like probably aren’t gonna be working with a trans artist given the statistics, like it’s really sensitive. You don’t want to be presenting this person as someone to gawk at or some someone who’s a spectacle. And we do, we see Oliver when he is a little kid and we see him when he is in his twenties and we see him when he is a grown man and it’s always just presented really sensitively in such a way that you can track that he looks different now than he used to, but it’s never presented as like something to gawk at. I loved how sensitively and carefully Letizia did that. Just character designs, I think her character designs throughout are just astonishing and so expressive.

Elana: Everybody has such good body language and the way it carries when they are the ones who do end up being changed in different ways. The way it changes in their– it’s not just people’s facial expressions, it’s their whole bearing and in Oscar you can see when he’s feeling swagger and when he’s feeling really unsure and frightened of himself. And there’s a whole sequence of him in issue two I wanna say, where he is on the subway and dealing with the sort of awareness of, ‘are people looking at him? Is he being judged and are bad things about to happen?’ And like conveying that through his physicality is really well done.

Jude: It’s so well done. And I mean, I was like really astonished because I had written like I always do– I tend to come at things with a cannon rather than a scalpel. Like I just threw a lot into the script and Letizia was so good at looking at it and knowing exactly how far to pare back to just get the emotional moment in every panel. Like I really love that in her work. 

Elana: I also really love the stained glass windows in the house that they live in, the stained glass windows that– they’re all really beautiful and narrative, but not so literal– did you design those windows together or– how did those come to be?

Jude: That was, I absolutely, like I was just getting out old maps of houses for Letizia. She got like this whole map of, ‘here’s the house and here’s what window is in each room’, because I did plan them out so that they would speak to the plot. It’s, I think in Casey’s room for instance, it’s a Cinderella stained glass window where it’s just like a poor, abused teenager cowering in fear of her terrible step-parent, which is clearly what Casey wants to believe is happening at that juncture in her life. She’s not at all happy that her mom is remarried. And in the bathroom it’s Rapunzel and the spindle and we have, Oliver injecting T in the bathroom. I had ideas of what it was all gonna look like. I, unfortunately, like I just really– Do you know that movie “Crimson Peak”? The Guillermo Del Toro movie?

Elana: I do! Big fan. 

Jude: So like that entire house, the haunted mansion that you finally get to, it’s so over the top, but like every room is a fully realized place and there’s always somewhere to put your eye on and there’s always something special happening. And I really just wanted to get in there and build my haunted house. And so unfortunately, Letizia inherited that. She inherited like a five page document of what was in that fucking house.

Elana: Yeah. Oh my God. But it was really fucking cool. I like that that’s– in terms of folk horror, I mean, it’s funny, people just love to talk about it as this holistic genre when I think it’s actually a really disparate genre. What are some of the folk horror influences in the story for you?

Jude: For me, honestly, like with this one I– the texture of it is really Del Toro-y. “Pan’s Labyrinth” was on my mind as well as “Crimson Peak” a lot while I wrote it. But in terms of the actual folklore, like that’s all just, I’m pulling it out of like Yates and other old folklore treasuries. There’s a scare in issue four, which I love issue four because it lets me get like really deep into the mythology, but it’s– you approach someone and they stand up and then they stand up and up and up and up and it looks so creepy and it looks sort of James Wan-ish. It looks really contemporary, but it’s just like a really literal rendition of one of the folk tales Yates collected in, gosh, I always get, this is a long-ass title and I’ve read this book a million times and I still get it so wrong, but it’s, um, “Fairy and Folktales of the West Country {Irish Peasantry}”. I think. 

Elana: That sounds right, 

Jude: I’m gonna give you the title afterwards, but yeah, that’s just like how the Banshee is described is that you approach her and she looks like a woman. She’s kneeling over, she’s sobbing. You touch her, you realize that her hair is like nine feet long, and then she stands up and she’s the size of a house. And I was just like, that’s great. I’m doing exactly that because that works. There’s all sorts of just– the little charms that people recite are actually just taken from random folklore, treasuries that I looked for. You know, like I, there’s so much of this stuff is just profoundly creepy. And because we’ve put this Renaissance fair gloss on it, it’s, it’s always presented as like twee and mischievous and scary, but in a pretty way. And I don’t mind pretty, but I want the primal dread of ‘the land we live on is not ours. The people around us are not always people, and we live at something else’s mercy, and we need to be very, very careful to never stand out in any way or bad things happen, bad, bad things happen.’

Elana: Mm.

Jude: That to me, again, that just, that speaks to being a marginalized person in the dominant culture. That, like you, you’re always walking through someone else’s territory, and you need to understand their rules, even if they don’t make any sense to you, because otherwise it’s not gonna work out. Like you’re going to get in very deep trouble very fast.

Elana: Yeah. There is a lot of motifs around different wicker, and straw, and bodies, and cold iron and other sorts of very specific associations with different mythologies and things like that through the story. And they’re presented to us through– in a way where it’s unclear like what is just being invented by this person and what might be drawing from something more real. And so I was left being like, I think that’s a thing. I don’t know. Maybe it’s not a thing I, that one might be a thing, but are they supposed to be like that? Which is interesting ’cause I also am sure that folks who have more specific background in that lore are like– probably have a very different, read on exactly what’s what… but I’m just sort of like, ‘I have watched “The Wicker Man” many times, so that is–’

Jude: Yeah, and it is, there’s definitely like a “Wicker Man” element, like the bit in “The Wicker Man” where they make the kid hold a frog in her mouth to cure a sore throat, that’s a real thing. And like I love, if you ever read like some of these old grimoires and like lists of folk magic, these were farmers. They killed animals all the time, so all of their spells are super fucking bloody. Like the thing of rubbing a bird on somebody and then impaling the bird on a spike because you’ve given their sickness to the bird and you’ve killed the bird and now the person won’t die. That’s definitely a thing. And like I just, I love that stuff and it’s really, it’s definitely– I imagine this is a super disappointing interview because it’s so like ‘Jude’s special interest time. Did people really pee in bottles to make witches go away? They sure did, but–’

Elana: That’s something that a lot of people, I think, have strong questions about, so good, good to know. 

Jude: Yeah, so like to the extent that I could manage it, everything in the book is a thing. But like definitely if it was going to be more dramatic or bloody to switch it up a little, then I would do that. Like I absolutely… there’s so much harm done to animals in this book–

Elana: Yeah. Well that’s interesting… yeah, there’s– it’s interesting because there’s such a prohibition against certain kinds of depictions and whether or not I am up for or not up for a particular depiction of animal harm can vary so much on so many factors that it’s kind of impossible to quote unquote content warning it because– I did not have a problem reading this book, but it is absolutely as you describe– yeah, there’s a lot of small animals having things happen to them as part of different religious practices as well as the stuffed animal.

Jude: Yes, poor Kittenbones. R.I.P. Kittenbones. 

Elana: I just, I know– I mean also the fact that the cat’s name– the stuffed animal cat is Kittenbones is such a perfect, and I feel funny saying this ’cause you are a parent and I’m not, ut it’s such a perfect example of the kind of weird shit little kids say and give things that I’m like, ‘yes, of course a small child’s fucking cat, stuffed animal’s named Kittenbones’. Like, we have– they, kids say the darndest things,

Jude: Yeah, that is, that’s just my imagination failing me. My brother gave my daughter a cat puppet when she was like three, and she loved it, and she named it Kittenbones because her hands were its bones? So–

Elana: Oh my,  yeah. Oh my God. Right. Of course, right. See, it’s like completely creepy. It’s completely creepy and completely real. Like I love that. But, oh, but, so I, this– I was able to read this, it wasn’t like triggering for me, but I literally was reading Jack Kirby’s “Devil Dinosaur”, not long after my cat named Dinosaur died, and just seeing this very not realistic depicted animal, not of the same species even as my cat, not get killed to simply be bullied by larger dinosaurs was too upsetting for me. I was like, ‘I can’t read this right now. I’m crying’. I just like, yeah. We have our, I don’t know that people are necessarily like ‘trigger warning, “Devil Dinosaur” depicts some dinosaurs being bullied. You may cry.’

Jude: Yeah. I think that things happening to animals, things happening to children is, for me, I can’t, I cannot deal with harm coming to children in horror. There’s like a lot of threat being aimed at a two-year-old girl in this particular story, and it was really scary for me to try to figure out a way to handle that without it being unbearable, because when something, when a child or an animal is completely incapable of comprehending harm, that makes the reality of the danger they’re in just all the more overwhelming, and it’s, it can be just unbearable. It’s the entire dilemma of having a pet or a kid–

Elana: Yes. 

Jude: –compressed into a very graphic example of, ‘you are not supposed to let this happen because if it happens, they will not be able to stop it’. And that sort of like raw nerve thing. I mean, when my kid was born, I couldn’t even hear her cry. It like physically hurt me. I was just like, ‘there is a life in the world and I am responsible for it and I cannot bear to know that harm is going to come to this person as they live in the world’. You know?

Elana: Yeah, I can’t even, I mean, based on the amount of anxiety I have dealing with my pets, no way would I ever be able to deal with– I mean, the advantage children have is at some point in time they stop trying to eat things that will kill them, generally speaking. 

Jude: I mean, do they? Like they stop trying to eat nickels, but then they go to college and they like have a full bottle of Yeager at a party, like I don’t think, I think you’re like 35 before the “just stick anything in your mouth” phase ends. 

Elana: Phase is truly over, but yeah, I know. But, so I’m just like, just dealing with that, it still sounds absolutely impossible, but, so yeah. How did you write for that, when that is so hard to do or to witness yourself as well?

Jude: I mean, honestly, I think it’s useful to have a sensitivity or a phobia when you’re trying to write something that scares people, because you can just use your own pain as a gauge. There are moments, I think, especially in issue three and issue four that get really gross and do deal with harm coming to children. But it’s one of those things where like the very end of issue three, which I don’t wanna spoil, but I will say that like the final panel had to be gone back over multiple times so that it was yes, scary. And like the first time I saw it, I like jumped back from the page a little. It needs to be scary and it needs to be profoundly disturbing. And it also can’t be so disturbing that I never wanna read this book again. Right? Because that– I have reached points with some things where I’m just like, ‘okay, I respect what you’re trying to do here, I don’t know if I will be back’. Right? ‘you’re doing something here and it’s great and it’s working and it’s not for me’. So it was just like trying to read everything. The same thing with “Maw”, the depiction of sexual assault I think in “Maw” hopefully does scare you. It should scare you, but it should not scare you in a way that is like a six-year-old trying to get you to look at a dead squirrel. Like, ‘look at it, it’s so gross’. That’s, I hate when I feel like somebody is trying to get off on their own edginess instead of scaring me.

Elana: Mm.

Jude: Writing around your own sensitivities hopefully gives you a decent respect for other people’s sensitivities, and you’re able to press against that boundary without just like walking over it.

Elana: Right, there’s also a certain amount of trust that you also need to have with a creator, and for me, it’s like there’s some people who I would trust to do certain kinds of stories and other people who I don’t, and the pe– there’s people who I don’t, who I love, I didn’t, I just don’t want them doing, I don’t want to read their take on certain kinds of things.

Jude: Yeah, right, like I think that there’s that Anne Carson essay I love about tragedy, about how seeing someone else go through the worst of their darkness in front of you hopefully gives you the ability to face yours and come to terms with it without taking it out on anybody else. I’m really cheapening what is a very beautiful point, as Anne Carson writes it, but I think that when you write, you have an obligation to scare yourself, and you have an obligation to write about things that matter to you because the whole point of horror is to be able to face the unthinkable and the things that you’re afraid of in a contained environment where you are fundamentally safe. Fundamentally, you are going to go to the point of death and maybe beyond and you are going to confront the most violent thoughts you have. You’re gonna confront some of the most raw pain you have, grief, and rage, and terror, and anger, and all that stuff you can’t necessarily bring to like Thanksgiving with your aunt you will be experiencing here. But it’s just like any other really vulnerable moment where like you need to know that the person who’s gonna walk you through this has been there themselves and has a decent level of respect for what you’re going through. That they’re going to facilitate catharsis rather than just torture you for fun. 

Elana: Yeah. And it’s, I don’t need them to have literally gone through this, there just has to be like giving a fuck that this is somebody’s life, I think? I don’t know. 

Jude: Bringing some like compassion to it instead of just gawking. There’s a lot of how…and this was hard for me because to be honest I’m a very white guy, and I wanted these people to not be an exclusively white cast. That just didn’t, it didn’t feel right for me when you’re talking about people who would feel uncomfortable in a small town, the idea of, you know, my husband’s experience growing up as like one of the only people of color in an all-White town was very much on my mind and I felt like that needed to be represented. But at the same time, like, how far am I gonna be able to get away with like endlessly victimizing Oliver, who’s a black trans person before someone points out that I am a white guy and there are things he’s been through that I will literally never go through in my life, right? I’m not saying approach it with kid gloves, I’m saying approach it with a decent amount of respect. If you can’t have the experience yourself, you know, at least ask yourself what would feel cheap to you. If someone was to write about the worst day of your life, would you want them to do it with a big shit-eating-grin on your, on their face, or would you want them to do it in a way that like reflected the humanity of the  person this happened to? 

Elana: I like that description. Yeah. Yeah. One, one of the things you also point to is there’s a– I think that people who have a background in critical writing, as well as people who come from spending a lot of time in online spaces, we arrive at the– on the page with a certain amount of critic built in that is perhaps more articulated than what might be for folks who don’t come from that orientation. And not only is it more articulated, we also, we have like eight of them. We’re like, ‘oh, this is what that kind of person is gonna say and this is what that kind of person’s gonna say, and this is what that kind of person’s gonna say. And then where am I? How am I fitting in this?’ And I know that it’s something to really struggle with. Keeping that from silencing me in my work. 

Jude: Because you can’t write for like your most bad faith reader. That’s, I mean, I do that all the time in essays where I’m just like, people will go through and be like, ‘you really don’t need to take three paragraphs explaining why this extremely strange reading of your essay is not the point you’re trying to make’. But I’m like, ‘no, I do. I need to, I need to see everybody coming from a mile away’. That ultimately isn’t that productive because it like puts you on the defensive and it keeps you from saying the stuff that feels genuinely risky. 

Elana: This is all true, but I will just say that when it came up in a recent essay of yours, I saw that and I said, ‘I identify with you in this moment’. And I, it’s like, I mean, you know, the fact that I have to be like, ‘I realize that I am quoting somebody who may or may not be an okay person. We don’t know. And that’s not why I’m quoting them. I just wanted to share this analysis they shared. Please don’t hold me accountable for whether or not they’re secretly terrible. I don’t know from Adam’, you know, so I’m like, ‘yeah, no, he probably has to say that. Yep. I’ve seen it’. But the reason I think that worked in that piece is that the fact that you had to do that was part of the topic of the piece in the first place. So I was like, yes, that might be disruptive to an analysis of some other topic, but for that it was almost like the medium and the message uniting is one. So, another big thing in real world fear that is really central to the story you’re telling is Oliver dealing with his. I don’t even know that I– here’s the thing, like most people I think would try to clinicalize it and call it agoraphobia, but I don’t think that’s accurate when like, the reality is he’s right, things are happening. And even though the fear that he enters the story with, that makes him unable to leave, feel like he is unable to leave his house in, when he’s in Brooklyn in the beginning of the story, is not rooted in like being delusional. It is just an a, a hyper, highly protective reaction to a reality.

Jude: Yeah, and I mean, I was just reading and this, I read this, literally years after I finished “The Neighbors”, but I read a book called “The Terrible We” by Cameron Awkward-Rich, which talks about the figure of ‘the trans recluse’, the idea that your social self is so awkward for everybody else to deal with, that it often does make sense to just sort of fold up and pack in and not really deal with other people to the extent that you can manage it. And I mean, to me that’s– what Oliver’s going through is an extreme version of that. But it definitely is the case that like, you know, I moved into a new place and one of our neighbors came over and they’re super nice and they baked us cookies and they’ve turned out to be lovely people! But during that first encounter, I was literally just crouched up on the second floor, like Boo Radley, like while my husband and my daughter dealt with them. ’cause I’m like, ‘I don’t want them to see me. I don’t know how they’ll react’. Like that, that feeling that the world is a hostile place is, it’s like a stress injury, a repetitive stress injury. 

Elana: Yeah, that’s a great analogy

Jude: Going, you know, like going to the subway one time isn’t gonna kill you, but going over and over and being a little bit nervous every single time, over time I think people do break down. They retreat, they withdraw into themselves. And to me, what was exciting about putting Oliver in that position is that once he’s already limited his fear of activity to the smallest possible, safest possible environment, what happens if that goes away? What happens if outside and inside are equally unsafe?

Elana: I think so much about this is reflective of the experience of the ongoing pandemic. Especially for, for people who were unsafe in their homes as well as unsafe at work as well as unsafe in public spaces during the, during the, the period in time in which more people were recognizing that things were not safe. And then now the experience of myself and many other people who are either immune compromised or, who as I describe, cannot afford to get Covid. So much of the world’s refusal to accommodate the reality of the, this disease has made spaces inaccessible to us, including ones that were accessible before. You know, like I think about, I could go to the movies a couple years ago ’cause people were wearing masks then. I saw so much of my own limited ability to access space portrayed there in a way that didn’t feel like I was being told that there was something wrong with me if we’re seeing this reality that I’m experiencing. And it was so interesting ’cause it’s so close to it. It’s so easily could have been something that felt pathologizing, and certainly there are people in the story, including people in the story who we like, right? Who do pathologize it, and I certainly don’t think that it’s a one-to-one equivalent with dealing with highly contagious level three pathogens in the air, but it was interesting seeing that aspect of our lives illustrated in this way.

Jude: Yeah, but it is the same thing. It’s the idea that the proximity of other people is dangerous in a way you can’t account for or manage, right?

Elana: Mm-hmm. 

Jude: And it’s the idea that you have to really control your space and be super familiar with your space and have the best perfect boundaries or something from the outside is gonna get in. And all spaces are permeable, right? Especially you, you’re in the city, like every space in the city is very permeable and you’re at more risk, but– sorry, not to be– 

Elana: Oh, no, totally. I mean, a– I and I talk about this ’cause people were, you know– outside is definitely safer than inside, but outside isn’t magic. I got Covid outside. I didn’t get Covid alone in the woods, that would literally be transubstantiation of a sorts. I got, I got Covid outdoors at a holiday market, right? But even the things that are told to be safe or that, are it harm, harm reduction isn’t harm zero, you know? But boy, like, could we, could we use some people taking action for harm reduction right now? The, that would be improvement over being left to only protect yourself because nobody’s willing to take even the slightest actions towards protecting anyone else. So this just felt, so of this time right now, I’m sure I’ve probably alienated 15% of my listeners by talking about this. So I’m happy to engage with anybody who wants to talk about our reality, but, but anyway, it, it is really, it was so interesting to me just to see, I don’t know that that was part of the plan around this story based on the timeline of when it was written, but it felt very much of a p– of a piece with this experience we’re having now.

Jude: No, I mean, I’m glad it spoke to you in that way. I think one of the most sort of revelatory things I’ve learned in the past few years is to not look at any of your reactions as if they are wrong or bad or crazy. Everything you’re doing, even the stuff you might not like that you’re doing, made sense at some point. Everything you’re doing is a perfectly logical way to save your own life, and if you come at it– this is maybe applicable to writing because when you’re writing a character who’s behaving in a way that other people can’t easily understand, you don’t, you say, you don’t wanna view him through like a specimen’s lens, you don’t want to append something clinical to it and you don’t wanna say that he’s broken. You want people to understand that he needs to be inside because he is never safe outside. The end. Like it might not make sense to Janet and it might not make sense to everybody at first glance, but if you were him and you had lived his life, this is what you would be doing.

Elana: Yeah. 

Jude: And I think something like we all need stories that approach that raw stuff, the reactions that don’t make a ton of sense or that aren’t flattering. Like the extreme, extreme rage in “Maw”, which was definitely a part of me. I mean, I have had years of my life where rage took up most of it, and it scared me, and it made me sad, and it made me not like myself as a person, but anger exists to push something off of you. I was straining really, really hard to lift something off of myself and it wasn’t moving, and that’s why the anger wasn’t going away. You know, that you can just go into those weird, creepy spaces, go into the reactions that don’t make sense, and try to understand why they make sense and what they’re doing. They can turn out to be really beautiful gifts, and I think that horror, for whatever reason as a genre, really does lend itself to an exploration of people who are extreme or maybe you’d call them damaged or who are having reactions that like, we don’t totally understand. I think even just something as simple as like the Scream movies and how realistic Ja–, not Jamie Lee Curtis, Sidney Prescott’s PTSD is in those Scream movies. Like the later ones is just like somehow really validating and wonderful that, yeah, you can’t just live through 18 slashers and not be a little fucked up, you know? It’s- they do it with Jamie Lee Curtis in “Halloween H2O”. 

Elana: So good. 

Jude: Strangely, it’s like one of the more realistic depictions of PTSD in cinema. Like she just behaves like she got out of an abusive relationship–

Elana: That’s the recent, that’s the recent one, right?

Jude: No, this is like the nineties one with Josh Hartnett’s terrible hair. I haven’t even seen the recent ones.

Elana: Oh my gosh, I really liked the recent one. I, whatever was one that came out right before the pandemic began, I really liked that one. I don’t know if there’s been another one since then, but–

Jude: They’ve done a whole trilogy and I’m going to catch up on it eventually. 

Elana: There’s a lot that has been made. There’s a lot that, there’s a lot out there, so, but, yeah, no, that, I think that’s a really powerful way of looking at this. When it comes to talking about independent comics, I do try to avoid heavy spoilers because part of why we’re having this conversation is ’cause we wanna encourage people to go and check out the book. Whereas, you know, if I’m gonna be talking about what’s happening in X-Men, I’ll have a spoiler-free and a spoiler-full section. Right. Um, so I, this will be the, this, the mild, the low-spoiler version of talking about Agnes. But when I look at the character of Agnes, who’s the older woman, you’re looking at someone who is, yes, interacting with the world in a completely different way than everyone else in the space is. And people’s fear of, or person, fear of her as well as like her own actions, like come together in an interesting way.

Jude: Yeah, exactly. I mean, I think that hopefully that comes across. I always feel really annoying when I talk about what I was trying to say because, right, like the book should say it. One thing you could say about my whole, ‘let’s be a sensitive guy’ routine is that I’m being programmatic or I’m allowing ideology to substitute for storytelling. And I don’t think that’s what it is. I think it’s just like having a steady hand on your own worst impulses as you tell the story. But with Agnes, I really just again, I want to go back to that– because it’s a story about family and a story about children I wanted to go back to childhood fears. The witch from Wizard of Oz scared me so much. Once when I was delirious, I was like convinced she was trying to get into my bedroom, and I just screamed my throat out, I was like so horrified by her. And I think that just like an old woman who lives in the woods and is weird around children is primal, and we can visit that, but it’s also the case that like even as Oliver is convinced that everyone in the world is gonna look at him and only see the worst of him and move in some kind of violent way against him, the second someone he doesn’t know is nice to his kid he’s like ready to lock her up for life. That I want, I wanted to have that as part of the story. Maybe just because there was so much conversation about the demonizing of gay and trans teachers and calling trans people groomers and ‘we’re not safe to be around kids’ and I am also a parent. I don’t think anyone is safe to be around my kid. Like it’s, every human being on earth is protective of their child, but when you automatically ascribe harm to people based on what they look like or where they come from, that is a recipe for things to go very wrong.

Elana: Yeah, yeah. Speaking of complicated characters, I– it was interesting the daughter, the teenage daughter in the story. She’s a character who I wanna come in with sympathy for, because I’m like, ‘okay, here’s depressed, goth girl, teenager, let’s see where she’s at’. And then it’s, ‘oh, where she’s at is being fucking terrible in ways that are very believable and very teenager believable’. How did you sort of land on her particular kind of being terrible? That is her from the beginning.

Jude: Yeah, I think that anything, if you’re gonna try to write someone who’s being terrible, you should understand why they’re being terrible. You should be able to acknowledge that maybe there’s a part of yourself that’s terrible in that same way. Like with “Maw”, like Diana was this very programmatic feminist for whom everything was very black and white and she was convinced that she was making the world better and therefore the ends justified the means. And that’s absolutely someone that– I can be someone who’s like absolutely convinced of my own rightness and unwilling to bend or consider nuance. Everybody has that. I think Casey acts like a little demon because her family has very recently splintered out of her control and changed in several ways that she didn’t really get a say in. And she used to be her mom’s only baby, and now she’s not the only baby, and she’s angry and motivated to, I think, cause chaos and press on fault lines in the family and play people against each other. And that’s all coming from a really– I think it originates in a pretty human place of needing to exert some control over a family life that is increasingly just moving forward without any input on her end. I think I have never been– like the worst person I’ve been in my life was always every time I met one of my mom’s new boyfriends, because I was like, ‘I’ve seen you before, buddy. You’re not gonna last. Wait till you see what I can do. Wait till you see what a horrible child my mother’s raised’. And it was because I had seen the worst of people early on in life and I was just testing people to see what kind of reaction I could get out of them. I think that’s pretty common for kids. But I also think that like at a certain point in this story, it hits this whole other level where what begins is like just a teenager being annoying to prove that she exists, becomes something a lot darker.

Elana: Her particularly like her messages with her friends and how off, like the terrible thing she says about Oliver, just like kicking me in the gut each time with, ‘oh, but fucking teenagers would’, and you don’t wanna think of them as being capable of saying bigoted shit like that. And I think often they don’t wanna think of themselves as being capable…

Jude: Yeah. But like they’re teenagers. The only power they have in the world is cruelty. So they’re going to be, like–

Elana: I love that. Yeah.

Jude: I think it’s, what’s really fun for me is that as Casey gets worse, she gets more aggressively normal.

Elana: Yes. Yes.

Jude: She just, she cleans up her act more and every time she cleans up her act, it’s a preface to her being even more terrible than she was last time. I think it’s just the encroaching threat of normalcy that she represents is really terrible. But she’s so well done. And that’s another thing where again, I don’t want to get into it in a way that’s just gonna wreck every last turn of the plot for people, but Letizia’s heart on her– Casey starts out as, I was sending her like photos of Billie Eilish or I don’t know, like Fiona apple when she was really miserable and a teenager and like she starts there and by the end, some of the visuals around Casey are just astonishing in ways I couldn’t have predicted. There were some that just made me gasp and again, like pull back from the PDF of the inks. I really, really love what she does with her.

Elana: It’s really freaking good. It’s a good team-up. How did you guys connect?

Jude: Again, I think that Letizia was somebody that Boom! knew ‘bout ’cause she’d worked on “House of Slaughter”, and they had just wanted to see more from her for a long time. And that’s one of those things where, it’s, I tend to trust my editors on those things, because like I understand that as much as I have strong ideas of how something should look, and I have like a palette of aesthetic inspirations, and I try to include a lot of references, and I try to include a lot of visual detail for the artist so that they’re not just like flying blind and having to cover for a shoddily written script. My goal ultimately, like the most gratifying thing about the comic is that they’re gonna hire someone who’s a lot more talented than I am at this, and I’m going to get to watch them go, right? Like I try to leave a lot of room, hopefully provide some inspiration, but leave a lot of room for the artist to just come in and be amazing because that’s the fun of the book for me.

Elana: Yeah. Yeah. Getting to see your work brought through them. Were there things that you learned about how to write a comic between this book, between writing “Maw”and writing “The Neighbors”?

Jude: Yeah, I think with “Maw” I was a little bit showier. There are pages like that Instagram grid for Wendy and there are a lot of weird little, there’s like the maze panels in I think in issue two– I’m talking about like specifically issue two because I remember doing a lot of things just to prove that I could do them there. And with “The Neighbors”, I thought, ‘well this is my second comic, I’m now a master of the form! I’m gonna do the most wild ass layouts you can think of!’ And often I found that yeah, some of that is still in there. Some of the weird layouts are still in there, some of the sort of disjointed storytelling, especially in issue four, which I wanted to just do like full-on “Black Lodge”, David Lynch, I want us to be in nightmare logic for the whole thing. But very often I found that simpler was better. That if you sit and you tell the story, the story will tell you how it needs to be told. And you just need to pull back and stop trying to impress people and wow people and let the story organically create those opportunities for a great panel or something. 

Elana: Another moment from the comic that really felt like a very timely horror was– and for listeners, we are now entering like, the full spoilers moment. Okay, here we go. A moment that felt really relatable and terrifying to me, and also very timely to the world now, is when Oscar can’t access his T. His testosterone for the uninitiated– is… not only are we dealing with legislation that is keeping trans people and non-binary people from being able to access their medication, the entire pharmacological system was disrupted by the pandemic. And there is– I know so many people with so many different kinds of disabilities, spending so much time chasing down medication that they used to be able to order online easily that they can’t get anymore. Like first you have the maliciousness of the people who they’re trying to deny healthcare to. And then you have the, the apathy by design, the structural abandonment of, every, anyone who needs, you know, ADD medication or antidepressants or any one of the many medications that we periodically are running short of. The feeling so vulnerable to accessing medication and to worrying what you will be like without it is such a real active fear for so many people right now, like of all different kinds, and is very, very scary. 

Jude: Yeah. And hopefully that’s how it comes through is– I think T plays a role in the story. I wanted to just demythologize it a little bit, do you remember the clip of Lindsey Spero taking their T in front of the Florida Board of Medicine? 

Elana: Yes. That was so badass

Jude: It was so great! But it was also just like, all of this Sturm und Drang and all of this, you know, hand-wringing about post-humanism and the vast conspiracy to trans our kids, it’s over a fucking shot. It is a liquid. It comes in a vial. You shoot it into your thigh once a week or some people do their stomach– Spero did their stomach– or your hip, I don’t know. But it’s, I wanted it to be just like any other medication where it’s not given supernatural powers in this story, it doesn’t make Oliver a different person, it doesn’t change his personality, but it is a substance that he needs to manage his disability. I guess, I don’t know. I think that’s probably, people could tell me why framing transnesses as a disability is fucked up in a few ways. 

Elana: Except for disability people who are trans who will totally talk about it that way because there is no consensus and people are just gonna have arguments with each other. Anyway, continue.

Jude: But it’s like he needs, just like some people need their antidepressants, just like some people need diabetes medication, he needs this one substance to be okay. It’s a scheduled substance, if he loses it, given that he can’t leave the house, it’s gonna be hard for him to get more. It’s, it’s because it affects his hormone levels, it affects his mood and going off it suddenly is gonna send him into freefall. And that’s why Janet’s gonna be able to think that he’s crazy in the next issue because he’s literally going under– undergoing a mood disturbance as the result of his body changing its temperament. It’s, I don’t know how well I do this, but I wanted it to just be like a given, the way you might have– in “Rear Window”, James Stewart has a broken leg and the entire plot is like very much formed around like what can and can’t he do with this broken leg. Like Oliver needing T is the “Rear Window”, broken leg of this story where there are things that he physically needs and there are ways in which his physical needs shape the course of the story. And it’s not more  complicated than that. It’s just a shot. 

Elana: So many substances become more precious in the manufactured scarcity that we are experiencing. It shouldn’t be that when you accidentally lose medication on the ground, you want to cry because you don’t know if you’ll be able to get it again and your insurance might not pay for it for another month. But that is the reality for so many people, and like, you know, when he talks he mentions like specifically like, ‘this was supposed to last for six months!’ Like, you know, I, I’m my brain goes this immediately. Like, his insurance is not gonna replace that for him. Like, it’s like these, these like horrible indignities that are created by the medical society and like all this other shit. And that’s just such a strong piece of the horror experience of the story for me.

Jude: Yeah, and it’s that other thing. It’s outside, inside. It’s the body is one form of inside that you’re supposed to be in complete control of, but you so often aren’t. That so often the world gets into the body and changes the experience you’re allowed to have of your body, and that can be profoundly destabilizing. There’s an image, this is another issue four thing, but this is another thing that comes from folklore of the people who are made of rotting logs. So if you look at them from the front, they’re people and if you look at them from the back, they’re just empty and emptied out. And that just, that felt to me, again, it’s one of those things where like I think I was just like writing off vibes and I was like channeling some sort of emotional feeling about what it feels like to be in a body you don’t fully control or feel at home in. But that image, the idea of people being empty on the inside or only half full or full of something that isn’t them, is all over “The Neighbors”. And I think it was just literally me trying to wrap my head around, I don’t know. I was not somebody who was terribly physical before transition. I am now, I’m a lot more physical now because I feel more comfortable. But the idea that making a physical change could make my life better was like almost insultingly obvious to me. It was like, ‘no, what are you telling me that if I remove the rock from my shoe I’ll have an easier time walking?! I need, I’ve developed an entire theory of mind and a theory of life around having a rock in my shoe. My politics are about the fact that I have a fucking rock in my shoe. Everything that I do ideologically is around having a rock in my shoe. And now you’re telling me I can take it out. I can’t believe this’. It’s, again, I think that these are, a lot of these are questions that people go through in early transition and people who’ve been out for a long time are like, ‘yeah, that’s nice, honey. We’ve all heard it, we’ve heard it all before. Everybody thinks they’re the first person to go through it, but “Neighbors” has a lot of fucking with the idea of identities and bodies and ways they line up or don’t line up. It’s just literally just me working through my issues at the time. 

Elana: Well, it’s certainly not unique issues to you, and I think it’s good to be seeing all this happening in public and is helpful for a great number of people. So yes, and I think I wanna have the right audience, the audience who really needs this and will benefit from it the most be folks who find it. So that is one of the reasons I am really happy to have you on the show.

Jude: Well, I am so happy to be here. Thank you for taking me seriously

Elana: Always! Yes! Oh, I didn’t ask you. What does it feel like to be a GLAAD Award nominee?

Jude: I feel like they maybe ran out of comics and they needed to find an extra one to fill the list. 

Elana: So that used to be true, but it is not true anymore. I mean, it was only ever true because they didn’t look at indie titles. There was definitely a point early on where they’re like, ‘every single Marvel or DC comic book that has anything that’s like pro queer in the slightest will be nominated’. And the one who wins will be the one that’s actually the one that you’re like, ‘yeah, you should give it to them’. But for, I don’t wanna say how many years, for a number of years now, they’ve definitely been doing more recognizing independent comics. And you have lots of competition right now, including recent podcast guest Jadzia Axelrod, who is the creator of the new “Hawkgirl” series. But, and like just, I mean–

Jude: Yeah Jadzia’s on it, Charlie Jane Anders is nominated, like there’s some great comics on the list. I feel really, it feels neat to be on a list with those names, just to be on a list with them. I know that’s like corny, but it really does feel true, and I’m so sensitive about critique of the comics in ways that I’m not of the nonfiction, because with the nonfiction, I’m making an argument and you can disagree with my argument, and you probably will. If I respect you as a person and you think that my nonfiction is bad, that’ll hurt because it means that I’m not as smart as you. I’ve failed to convince you. But for the most part, you go into it preparing to be divisive. With the comics, so much of it is just like trying to step back from making an argument and just speaking with honesty from my subconscious and from my sense of what it is to be human that, if I write a bad comic, it’s just like being told that the inside of my brain is bad. So I was really, and I know that’s not the case. I know that it’s just people have different tastes and what they like, but I was so nervous coming out, especially coming out as a person with an established platform where there were a lot of eyes on me right away, and if I fucked up or was bad for the community, it could be exponentially worse than if I were just like bad for the community with 15 Twitter followers to, to see that it meant something to somebody that I wrote “Neighbors”, that people felt like I had maybe pushed the conversation forward. It just, it felt like letting out a breath of air that I had been holding for two years. I was really humbled by it. I was really, I felt really nice about it. I’m sorry that, that was so sappy, but it’s very genuine. I

Elana: That’s awesome. 

Jude:  I’m sorry, I’m sorry that that was so sappy, but it’s very genuine.

Elana: No it’s– it was a sappy setup, what else are you gonna say? You’re gonna say, ‘fuck those people, I should get everything?’ Or you’re gonna say, ‘I don’t even care about the GLAAD awards, I’m so cool, I don’t even care?’ No, it’s the only possible answer, but I’m always gonna ask you ’cause people, people get, people should have the opportunity to say it, you know? So don’t, I, that’s the expected answer, but that’s fine!

Jude: Yeah. 

Elana: But just speaking chronologically, I mean there are a lot of things that could be in this year, so I think it’s really awesome to be nominated for that. I think it’s really cool, and hoping you that it gets the book a big bounce in sales which is one of the things they could potentially do. Getting my fingers crossed. Like you’re coming at this as someone who is very well established as a writer and a critic in a whole lot of other areas outside of comics, and we spoke a bit aside beforehand just about the difference of the response that you get in– just– in comics criticism. And for me, I, as someone who’s been aware of your work for a long time, like since the blogosphere days, it was, it’s so refreshing seeing people comment on your comics and not carrying in all of this baggage that… It says more about them than you, I think a lot of the time. So that’s been fun, so…

Jude: Yeah. And I mean, like for me, I think just writing it is really liberating because you know, when you’re writing an essay it’s your name on it and you are stepping out there and saying, ‘these are my experiences and they’re my beliefs’. It’s very literal and one-on-one and necessarily like, it makes sense to me that people have things they attach to my byline. They have an idea of who I am or I exist as a cartoon character in their head because I’m creating myself as a character. I’m putting myself out there and no character is universally loved. There are plenty of people on social media where when I see them I’m like, ‘Ugh, it’s this guy’. And it could be completely unfair! Maybe this guy’s dog just died. Maybe this guy is having a terrible day and could really use a pick-me-up, but I’m gonna be snarky and shitty, and he’s gonna feel worse if he sees it. That’s kind of how social media encourages us to treat each other. But when I am writing a comic, I am stepping away from the action, I am in a collaborative mode, I am very purposely thinking in terms of what the characters need and what the characters think, and trying to be true to them and their decisions, rather than stepping out there myself and inviting you to judge all of my decisions, all of which are wonderful– {The following is sarcasm!} by the way if you’ve ever had a problem with anything– 

Elana: Oh yeah!

Jude: –I’ve ever thought or done, that’s, there’s something wrong with you, but– yeah, I know. I know! It’s hard. 

Elana: Here I was, feeling like a good person, you know? But now I realize that because we have disagreed on things, I am really terrible. So I’ll sit with that.

Jude: It’s hard. It’s hard. It’s hard to be around me, I think because I’m perfect? It so often brings to mind for people the ways in which they’re not. But you know…

Elana: But no, seriously speaking and thinking about this– I, as a critic who takes critical writing, distinct from the topic of having opinions that you post as like 280 characters, like actual critical writing seriously as an art form, I am struck by the fact that periodically I will share with friends, ‘look at this amazing review from this particular person’. And I’ve had friends say to me, ‘but that person hates “insert thing that Elana loves”. I’m, why do you, why are you sharing their essay about this other thing?’ And I’m like, ‘because it’s interesting and I’m not, so, I’m not, they’re not my God emperor, I can agree with them on this and disagree with them on that’. Or people will get confused about why I shared criticisms written about things that I like. I’m like, it’s interesting to me. And I don’t know why that’s there’s I, which is not to say that I specifically go and collect critical analysis that I disagree with, there are so many ideas that are too dumb to be honored in public and should be ignored. But there are so many smart people with takes I disagree with that I’m interested in reading because they’re a good critic and I wanna know what they have to think about it. And I invite people to be more open to that, especially as I would like to think that my audience are the kind of people who know that we don’t agree with and sub– and subscribe to everything that every, you know, musician, God-knowing we listen to, or comics writer we’ve read, believes or subscribes that like, you can also find things that are enriching and interesting in a critic who you respect trashing something that you love actually, or vice versa. 

Jude: Yeah, and I mean for me, like I think the internet sort of encourages you to treat everything like it’s a sports team? Like, ‘I like Taylor Swift and not Lana, Del Rey’, or vice versa, and then your idea becomes conflated with your sense of self. So you have to keep defending your idea to the death and you have to not only, not like this particular TV show, but hate it so much that it becomes part of your brand, or hate everybody who’s a fan of it, or just specifically not read anything that’s gonna be critical of the TV show that you love or whatever. Like that to me what I noticed that I was spending so much of my offline time thinking about whether or not I would feel personally insulted reading an article by someone who was gonna disagree with me, that was a warning sign. 

Elana: Hmm. 

Jude: Because you cannot learn if you are afraid to pick up a book that contains concepts you don’t already agree with. So I purposely go out of my way to try to find books and essays that I’m gonna disagree with, not in a way that like I am picking at the wound or trying to irritate myself, but because I am man enough to admit that I do have stupid takes sometimes.

Elana: Hmm.

Jude: That’s right. In my 15 years of writing, I would estimate I’ve had between two and three bad takes, but I’ve now corrected all three of them, because I’ve actually become aware that I have stupid ideas sometimes, because I’ve made it a point to read outside my comfort zone to seek out ideas that are not already mine. And I know that sounds really, that sounds like a free speech guy. Like, ‘I just have to be comfortable with conflicting ideas,’ But it’s, no, I think that you could absolutely accuse me of being blindly white-centric in some of my earlier feminist work. And I know that because I’ve read enough critiques from feminists of color of things like where the Violence against Women Act falls short by building up policing, or ways in which ideas of white femininity as perpetually endangered and weak and fragile, like that’s very much just white femininity, and protesting those stereotypes as they’ve been applied to White women isn’t necessarily gonna do a lot to help Black women who’ve been stereotyped as overly strong and overly sexual and all the things that White women have had to fight for the right to be perceived as it’s, when you’re not cognizant of that, then you end up writing analysis that’s limited or faulty or false. I once wrote like a bad crack, when I was just coming out and like coming to terms with myself as a trans guy, I wrote a bad sort of joke about like having a teenage boy at the girl’s slumber party, and I didn’t understand why some people reacted to that as if I were like a huge jackass. I straight up just didn’t understand it, and then I read enough to know that there’s a history of teenage trans boys being framed as sort of sexually dangerous or predatory to their fellow students. And my dumb joke about a boy at the girl’s slumber party was actually some moms’ trans panic defense for like trying to get a boy socially quarantined away from all of his friends. If you don’t keep your mind open to people who might disagree with you strongly, you’re never going to get past the sports team ideology of ‘that was a perfect joke, and everybody who hated that joke was an asshole and they projected so much of their bad feeling onto me,’ and just be like, ‘oh shit. I might have just accidentally repeated something that you heard every day during high school and it was terrible for you. I heard a different thing in high school’. I don’t know if I’m coming across as really preachy or lecturey, but I think that just the internet creates this sort of constant conflict engine where our ideas are ourselves, and as I’ve gotten a little bit older and I’ve gotten to see how silly some of the ideas that people project onto me are, I’ve come to realize that my ideas are not myself. My ideas change, my ideas die out. I remain, and it’s up to me to just keep encountering the world with curiosity, even if that means sometimes having to deal with the 30 seconds where I cringe because I was a dick in 2002. 

Elana: Hmm. That’s like really noble and aspirational and like stuff that I think more people… I certainly feel like I could certainly use as well in my life too. So I appreciate you bringing your full and flawed self to all of this shit and continuing to share in that way despite everything else that goes on. So for our listeners, if they want to keep out, keep an eye out for upcoming work from you, where should they check that out?

Jude: Well, I am on Bluesky mostly, that’s where I do all my bad taking. So I’m @judedoyle.bsky.social, and I have a newsletter that I come out with once a week, and that is jude-doyle.ghost.io.

Elana: Fabulous. Get on that. You are an early trendsetter in not doing Substack. It was so fucking crazy ’cause we were telling people, we’ve been telling people about Substack for a long time!

Jude: I think they’re just so comedically horrible that it was hard for people to understand. Like they thought that they were like Mark Zuckerberg terrible, where it was just like–

Elana: Right…

Jude: –I’m going to passively allow the Nazis to take over because I have ideals about free speech. And it’s no, these are the Nazis! Are their friends terrible? Like they’re so deeply bad that they’re like comic book villains, and when you try to explain how horrible they are, with like Hamish leaking notes of his meeting with people who protested the Nazis to the Nazis so that they could write blog posts about how Hamish was right all along? Oh my god. Like that it, you sound paranoid and shrill, and then people actually are like, ‘well, it seems like this is pretty clearly bad. I think I’ll try protesting this, I’ll take this to the Substack guys and see what they say’. And 15 minutes later they’re walking out with that look on their face, like they’ve just seen death, right? Like ‘I’ve looked into hell, I’ve seen the tape from Event Horizon, and it’s just the Substack guys’. Like it’s, they’re so bad that it stretches belief, but thank God people are catching on. 

Elana: Woo-hoo! Moving over, happy on your platform. And as for me, well one, I wanna shout out… I have an intern now, which is, I just wanna thank them for coming to me and wanting to do this, and now getting school credit. Thank you Sophia Longmuir! Like I, you’re the fucking coolest. 

Jude: Thank you Sophia!

{Thank you guys!}

Elana: I know! They’re the coolest fucking person. Why did– well, podcasts didn’t exist when I was in college, but I’m like, I would’ve loved to have thought of the initiative to do that myself too. So for listeners, if you are excited to see things like episode guides and transcripts of things like our Deep Space Dive episodes, you now know who to thank. And I myself am also on that very coolest, most interesting, and now open to the public of microblogging sites Bluesky with my handle at @levin. I am not completely gone from that other site because of the nature of the work I do, if you are there, you certainly can still follow me for now at @Elana_Brooklyn, but I don’t hang out there for kicks. That would be Bluesky, so come hang out with me on bluesky for kicks. And as we like to say, keep it geeky!


Episode Guide

1. Link to “The Neighbors”
2. Link to “Maw”
3. Link to “House of Slaughter”
4. Link to “Bloom”
5. Link to “Eat the Rich”
6. Link to “The Nice House on the Lake”
7. Yeats book
8. Jude’s essay
9. Cameron Awkward-Rich essay
10. Lindsey Spero clip
11. Podcast episode with Jadzia Axelrod
12. GLAAD comic nominees
13. Substack is a “free speech” newsletter site, here are some articles on its Nazi problem.

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